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Hey all. I think I finally did it. I made it. I'm the happiest I've been all year, and I haven't been this happy since I was 10. (I'm 22 now). I don't know if it was the medication changes (which helped a LOT) or if it's finally coming to terms with the fact that my psychotic symptoms will never go away, not fully, or if I made peace with my demons or am starting to forgive people in my life, but I finally feel nearly at peace. I made it. I didn't think I would live to be 22, or ever be happy again! BTW, I'm on Abilify 30mg and Lamictal 200mg. I think they work rather well for me.
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Hey. I have a problem. While I'm studying for my college classes and when I'm in a lecture. I'm in summer classes right now, and I can't afford to miss a single class. But the Voices know I'm trying hard to succeed, that I'm trying to focus this semester. But they won't let me. If I think about the Voices, they come and it starts to stress me out. I start to cry and have to leave for about 10 minutes. But I can't afford to lose those 10 minutes, something important might be covered. What should I do? I can't afford to miss class, but I don't want to cry in class either. The obvious answer wou
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Hi all, I have a meeting with my pdoc in 2 weeks. But I'm afraid. I owe him an apology after he said he thinks I'm schizophrenic. I was so angry I wanted to punch him in the face. But now, to make a long story short, I believe him. So I have to apologize. But I'm afraid of the demons. What if they get me before I get to my pdoc? What if they're REAL? They live in my house so they don't follow me in public, but the voices are everywhere I go. I am currently being treated with Abilify 30mg. It's very good. I've been much worse before I was on it. But I'm still afraid to go home...
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Oh thank you. I asked him and he said that it happens once every 2 years, as opposed to me who it happens to every day. I'm not AS worried about him any more, but I also recently learned that he's talking to a school counselor and it's partially my fault. He says I stress him out a lot, and when I asked him if there's anything I can do, he said "Don't fuck up". He said that he's worried about what the future may hold for me...
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I would like to say that I am NOT here to ask questions on behalf of my brother; he is 18 and can make his own account on this site. But recently he shared with me that he has hallucinations too. I just want to vent. Anyone, please, no, not him. Anything but him. I don't want him to suffer as I do, my pdoc thinks I have SZ. iI'm crying. It's not fair. He's so full of potential and very bright. I ask God why and get no response. Meanwhile the demons are getting stronger....
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My family is not supportive. When I broke the news to my mom she yelled "BULLSHIT". My dad will just insult me if I tell him. My brother understands, and when I told him about what the pdoc said he said "but isn't that what you've been dealing with since childhood?" I don't want to hurt my mom in any way, but her denial hurts me. He said it's either very mild schizophrenia or mood congruent psychosis. I don't know how to cope with this other than immerse myself in the world of books. Are there any books about psychosis/schizophrenia you could recomend, kittyloaf? By the way, thank you, Mellifl
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Hi, my name on this website is pinkfloydforeverlove, and my pdoc said he thinks I have either schizophrenia or mood-congruent psychosis. I'm so scared for what that might mean for my future. Will I be locked up for a few years? Go insane again if I go off my meds? He recently added Lamictal for my low mood so now I'm taking Prozac 80mg, Abilify 30mg, Klonopin .5mg as a PRN, and Lamictal every night. But I feel like you don't understand, I AM POURING MY VERY SOUL INTO THIS POST. I'm afraid. I have my own life, my own plans. I'm a college student right now as a sophomore and I desperately want t
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That pretty much sums it up. Well, not really. My therapist says I'm borderline suicidal. I don't really care anymore. I don't care if I live or die. I can't feel much of anything, really. And when I cut for the first time in 7 years, I really felt something that was close to relieving the pain that I feel on the inside. I don't wish this pain on anyone else. And my family CANNOT find out about this. When my dad found out about it, he simply said I cut myself because I'm crazy. And as for my mom.... Idk. I don't care what she would think. I don't care what my dad would think either. His opini