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sming

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  1. Iโ€™ve been on 15, 20, 25 and 30mg. I also take a boatload of other meds and one doc - Ketamine doc IIRC - was very concerned that I was at 30mg and asked I go down to 20mg, so I did. Other than that I personally found that 25mg and above made me even more depressed and anhedonic. Very slow to do everything, no interest in anything but it also quashed my horrific OCD very well. YMMV as always of course. Pete
  2. no, never heard of that! but it's in the realm of "shock the brain out of its [unhealthy] autopilot mode", one would expect? To that end, I suspect a cold pack wouldn't do it, unless it's frozen and you shove it right into your armpit or nether regions? I would love to find something that snapped me out of my compulsive self loathing so keep us updated please. Pete
  3. I could have written this. I can just about hold a job down with tons and tons of stimulants, approx 120mg Ritalin or Adderall. Each dose of 15mg takes ~35 mins to start lifting my mood and energy and is mostly ineffective after 90 mins. So I get these hour-long periods of life, interspersed by severe anhedonia, inattentiveness and depression. But often my OCD, DP/DR and/or my chronic pain ruin these precious hours PS hey @mikl_pls ! I will double-down on replying to you this weekend. Said OCD and ADD make reading replies nigh-on impossible ๐Ÿ˜” Pete
  4. I could have written your post @echolocation. I'm very depressed (TRD), have OCD, DP/DR, chronic pain and severe IBS-C . "Yay!" I simply cannot "see" the [potential] reward of watching a movie I haven't watched before, because I might not like it. Hence I don't/can't watch new films or listen to new music for that matter. This is really bad but it takes a backseat to my other problems TBH. However, I can listen to new authors via audiobook (sometimes) and try out new podcasts - as long as they're genres I like (which is reasonable for Normals I'd hazard to say). But even that I find
  5. It does as it happens. OxyContin is long-acting. I don't think that'd help tho cos LA meds, in my experience, simply give you less control over when you get the active ingredients and naturally spread the same amount over a long period, thus reducing their effect almost completely, in my case ๐Ÿ˜• That's a very good idea. I tried Tramadol a couple of times and it did zilch for pain or mood. Anyone know any opiates more similar to Oxycodone that I could try. I believe switching things up is referred to as "cross tolerance". I.e. you take advantage of cross tolerance to keep the brain gues
  6. Hi, I have TRD and CP and was getting good effect from 4x5mg Oxycodone for about 2 years. It helped a bit with the chronic pain but more importantly it helped with the terrible anhedonia and depression I suffer. I would get a solid 45 minutes of โ€œnormalityโ€ from each dose - Iโ€™d actually care about things. However in Feb I had an operation which went a bit wrong and left me in a lot of nerve pain. They prescribed extra oxycodone, which let me have a great February but now the 5mg, or even 20mg oxycodone leaves me feeling empty and anhedonic. The obvious conclusion is that my tolerance
  7. Sounds dubious to me, I've never heard that recommendation.
  8. That's interesting because I find that 30mg (which is I've the recommended max) works well for my TR OCD. But that's mainly because it makes me consistently pretty depressed and very anhedonic, and my OCD is only triggered when I'm feeling better/relatively OK. I'm on 25mg and that appears to be my sweet spot. Good but not great for OCD, and doesn't exacerbate my depression too much. HTH
  9. Hey @Equilibrium022x, your stack is very similar to mine. I wonder if our TRD brains are like peas in a pod? BTW 30mg Lexapro was also excellent for my TR OCD but the main reason (I think) it was so effective was because it made me so anhedonic, that I just didn't care about trying to control my "dangerous" thoughts (a.k.a. "Spikes"). My spikes require me to be feeling OK-ish in order to fire and 30mg removed that criteria, effectively. FTR, my current witch's brew (in mg) is : 300 Lyrica, 50 Percocet (chronic pain), 2 Lorazepam (breakthrough OCD fear/terror), 200 Provigil (dayt
  10. This is interesting because I read the same i.e. "no withdrawal" and BAM did I get withdrawal from Provigil. I was taking 400mg and doing well for ~ 5 days and then it pooped-out, so I just quit cold turkey. I basically went completely catatonic for 2 days until I found those few reports of severe withdrawal, took 200mg and felt human again in under 2 hours. Beware! Since then I tapered 400 -> 300, 300 -> 200, 200 -> 100, 100 -> 50 and now am off. I spent about 5 days on each dose. HTH.
  11. That's not a bad idea. Yeah it's def "roughly" two weeks since it has several active metabolites IIRC. I might try that as well once my meds go back to their pre-op levels (as right now I'm doing much better due to the large doses of Oxy...). I thought the keto diet had been mostly debunked as effectively just being a low-calorie diet? I'm way, way too depressed to exercise. I barely have enough energy to make a cup of tea most of the time, let alone go for a run or something proactive. Huh. Sounds like the meds really are doing a number on you ๐Ÿ˜• I'm fairly athletic
  12. Well, if you ever "unlock" these things (like some PDoc's and T's think you can, and then you are just light-years better), then I'll be fucking jealous as fuck! I've had numerous T's and PDoc's ask very awkward questions (e.g. were you touched etc.) about my youth and I honestly can't think of anything untowards at all. I've wracked my brains many times ๐Ÿ˜ž
  13. Isn't it also a feature of BPD? I seem to remember a guy with I think BPD who was hypersensitive like me. There's also this non-condition now : Do I Have Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria? which asks: High sensitivity about the possibility of rejection Overly high standards for yourself Feeling easily triggered toward guilt or shame Isolating yourself in a preemptive strike not to be rejected Aggressive or rageful behavior toward those who have been perceived to have slighted you Frequently feeling an uncomfortable physical reaction due to "not fitting in" or be
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