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  1. I have a box of pencils in my desk at work. They are not for writing. They are for snapping when I feel like snapping at others. It works, though. 

    1. helenllama


      that sounds like a good idea


    2. Cerberus


      You might consider using pretzel sticks as an alternative. They're not as expensive, they still have a satisfying breakage, and they would keep your mouth busy so you don't say something snarky to the other person.

  2. Is this a growing trend in the USA? I tried to become a new patient with a small psychiatric office. She has absolutely nothing to do with any benzos or sleeping pills. She has an extensive controlled substance policy and contract. Not only that, she has $100 cancellation fees, a $300/hour after hours/on call fee, and the requirement you keep a deposit on file in the office in $300 cash or a debit card # on file. I hope this is not what I have to look forward to as I'm trying to get help. How can I steer clear of these types of doctors, should I look at larger offices? Thanks for any heads up. . . .
  3. Glad for a few days off work and looking forward to college football games soon

  4. I want to see and talk to a doctor face-to-face. For someone who's introverted this seems rather odd but I don't want to use my laptop and talk to a doctor through screens. Anyone else old-fashioned about this? Between this hurdle and also wanting to find a doctor who is female, I am making it difficult. Plus since COVID they are at least 12 weeks out for appointments . . . .
  5. I am really bad in this catagory. Seems like I get way too comfortable being the third wheel in a friendship, you know the one that just tags along when two friends go out? That's me. I truly think that at this stage of my life I am too weird to have any real, close, soul-bearing types of friendships.
  6. Hypersexuality during mania completely messed me up. I would be chasing some girl around and somehow in all the frenzy of that crush I would put off major vibes or energy, so that I would end up with a boyfriend but totally be mentally and emotionally into whatever girl it happened to be that month. From age 8 to 37 the pattern never changed.
  7. I don't really hate people I just don't have a lot in common with 95 percent of them. I tend to keep to myself. And usually if someone pisses me off then I tend to dislike them for a long time, even if it is something trivial. Things just seem to drive a wedge between me and most of society. I have been described as an introvert by people at work but really a better word would be antisocial.
  8. I am not always angry but I am usually irritated. Sometimes over the stupidist stuff. I keep a box of pencils in my desk drawer, not for writing, just for snapping. It's gotten that bad.
  9. Happy for College Football season!

  10. I would love to have drips of mania every now and again to increase my creativity and motivation to write and record music like I used to. Sadly it doesn't work that way. Whenever I'm in an up mood, I do try to channel it towards music.
  11. BP2, not really manic, not really depressed, but I do tend to stay in an irritated mood. Need meds because I am dangerously close to menopause age and don't want this on top of that. Life is too short to be in this pissed off irritated state of mind. Thanks for any ideas, stories and suggestions.
  12. I was told "I miss the old you". Translation: they miss the drinking partying hypersexual manic me who zipped through life without a care. I just don't trust myself to be that person anymore. I'd rather be boring and grounded. When you meet someone while manic and then get your shit together, you do seem to be a different person. Others can't believe the stories they hear about me because it's so different than the me of today. Just thinking out loud.
  13. Hi everyone - hope that you all find some happiness in the upcoming holidays in whatever form that may be. 

  14. Friends/family along with the 3 that are going on the cruise with me think I am overthinking this. I have asked for prayers that the ship will not sink or run into bad weather. Also prayers for: no type of norovirus or food poisoning, no seasickness, no sunburns or migraines from bunkmate, no dehydration issues, no overindulgence in alcohol that results in stomach sickness ( I don't drink so this applies to bunkmates ). With the recent news with D.R. tourists I pray for no tainted alcohol. No injuries or illnesses since we could not get the insurance. And I don't want my anxieties over screaming unruly kids running around the ship to make me go batshit crazy. I plan on taking those disposable gloves and wearing them. I refuse to touch utensils at the buffets. I will only eat omelette eggs or things like pancakes (now that I have a slow digestive tract I doubt I will be eating much of anything) . Probably just bottled water to drink. I have to have somewhat of a normal routine and this being my first cruise I do not know what to expect. Carnival ship, mid-August to Bahamas. Is it possible for me to relax and actually enjoy this vacation? Would love advice, thanks . . . . . . .
  15. Is anyone else experiencing either a new feature or a glitch where I am logged off after a half hour or so of inactivity? Just curious if it was my computer or this message board feature . . . 

  16. I just got on prescription strength prilosec on Thursday - so far so good - I have TEMPORARILY made changes to my diet as I don't expect to eat/drink like this forever. But for some reason I don't understand, hot tea has been one of my irritants, iced tea also for that matter. I am not brave enough to try a soda yet. I don't lie down after eating and I make sure to drink my water after each bite or two of food, instead of one drink to 4 or 5 bites.
  17. Hello from a coastal NC neighbor!

    1. AnxietyGirl74


      hi. how are you/ Sorry my computer screwed up so it won't let me do question marks. I actually had to move to coastal SC but I'm still pretty close. I used to go to Trinity Wellness Center when I was in Leland. Now I go to Michael Wilcox in Garden City. 

      I hope you're doing well. This is the time of year I usually have a rough time. I'm actually doing well so far, though. I was shocked,  but in a good way. Glad to hear from a neighbor even if it is a little further than originally thought.

  18. Anybody have the problem of timing out and having to sign back in? I signed in then later opened another window to check social media - when I went back to this window I had to sign back in - this has never happened before - - - is this a new safety feature or something?
  19. Great weekend for college football!

  20. Woke myself up crying this morning - I can't even blame the dreams on Seroquel because I didn't take it - but this one is one of the dreams I have had several times, I just rarely wake up and remember it quickly enough. But it was there vividly this morning. The dream represents fulfillment in a part of my life that is very unfulfilled. I was having a hard time with this part of my life the night before, ruminating on it, getting angry about it, going round and round in my head and again coming up with no clear cut answer. And for some reason a few hours later after I fell asleep I had this dream again where this part of my life was just about perfect. The nicest people helping me and sharing in this area. Familiar friends from dreams before reaching out. I wasn't manic in the dream but I felt euphoric. I woke up and instantly started to cry, knowing that I probably will never have the fulfillment I experienced in the dream. All of this sounds like a great storyline for an episode of THE TWILIGHT ZONE but that's how it is I guess. . . . .
  21. I feel pretty good today - excited because Celine Dion released a new song today!
  22. Heart beating to where I thought people in the room could see it through my shirt. I was trying to do the breathing to get it to slow down (another hope that no one is staring at me). I did not know my heart could pound like that in just a matter of moments when the meeting turned into a "let's go around the room and share ideas". GULP
  23. These replies are full of great advice. There is an upcoming Saturday when my SO is volunteering and it will take up most of the morning and afternoon. I decided to use that time to do something she said she would love to do with me, but I know she would get bored in 20 min. So I am taking a road trip for that day! That way I can experience it, not be rushed or made to feel bad that she is bored, and when we get back home that night we will have stories to share. WIN WIN!
  24. Hoping everyone had more fun than stress. I just walked across the street to my neighbors. I made peanut butter eggs (not too hard but very addictive) and as usual let her family do most of the talking since I'm rather introverted. Nice to have someone open up their home and table.
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