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  1. I don't have any particular suggestions, unfortunately. My wife doesn't bite her nails (though I do) but bites the skin on the end of her fingers which gets worse with stress. She probably would address the problem more formally, but she's been "gifted" other issues that have taken priority it seems =>). Basically, and you may know more than me, but it really sounds like an addiction essentially. In addition to being an addiction, "skin picking" is (I believe and you proably know) in the OCD spectrum. Recently my wife did a cursory search on google for information on treatment and found nothing helpful. IME, I would think of it as an addiction (perhaps) and treat the underlying "chaos" (anxieties, other) that manifests as destroying your fingernails and skin. If you can identify an underlying pathology - it should be painfully obvious - I would address the "chaos" and the "picking" concomittantly. Conversely, I don't know if there are any other significant issues that feed the "habit"; in that case I would think the therapeautic premise would be at least somewhat similar, but could add a significant dimension I haven't accounted for.
  2. Hey, that's cool. My wife is actually BP2 and responds very well to amphetamines; almost literally, "Instant human. Just add amphetamines" From my understanding (ignorance?), I would have guessed for BP1 they could trigger mania in many cases. Perhaps different neurological dynamics depending on the pathology, but amphetamines seem to "light up" what's attenuated and "dim" the overactive offender in "responders". Thus calm and order are ushered in.
  3. The anitdote to avoiding the song loops in your head is to only listen to good music; only the songs you hate invade. Unfortunately, this isn't usually practical. She might be a talented lady, but when I've been exposed to Lady Gaga, I apparently have brain matter that is magnetically attracted to certain parts of her song/s. Unconsciously and without regard to humanity I'll begin singing, and from there the sound byte dies an unreasonably slow death inside my skull (afterlife?). I annoy my wife with my repetion of a particular verse in a song (often in an annoying voice) and even when she tells me to shut up, I find myself once again singing the song for just a second before I realize I have started singing again, at which time I (usually) render mercy on my wife and stop. Some of these types of traits have reminded me of the autistic spectrum; though it appears I'm just "unique". Of course, for most people a song in the head is normal. OCD, other psychiatric disorders just put a slightly different "spin" on this phenomenon potentially. Perhaps related, I will come across a word - not necessarily unfamiliar - that for whatever reason gets stuck in my head. I believe the word usually is spelled in such a way that is counterintuitive. I pick up on this in my head and pronounce the word incorrectly, but the way it would read phonetically in English. This is an obsession however that doesn't interfere with my life though - I have plenty that do, however =>)
  4. I'm not sure what "analytical" encompasses with your therapist. If my ability to analyze were harnessed into the right form of energy I could detonate an atomic bomb. If your therapist is examining a lot of nuance, anything but minimal time on your childhood, etc., they may be fantastic therapists, but not when it comes to OCD/similar. You have thoughts and/or compulsions that assail you. Most therapists are poor at treating OCD, obviously. Regardless of the approach taken, it sounds like your therapist is not a good fit from what you've expressed. I agree with mindfulness. The thoughts ain't going anywhere. I would suggest finding a well-reviewed, intelligent audio book or paperback on the subject. There are bound to be good websites also, but I would recommend getting a good book first so you'll be able to discern the randomness on the web. I've been impervious to therapy when I've tried it - not for lack of commitment. They just haven't been able to infiltrate my noggin. It always seems like they know little more or occasionally less than I do about OCD, and when they are OCD "specialists" (twice), they still aren't able to help. It could be that OCD can be inherently challenging to treat in my case because while I'm otherwise openminded, I have an expectation of the way things should go, click, whatever the preconceived dynamic may be I'm expecting, that may be rigid and oppressive to the therapeutic process (read: inflexibility/rigidity). Nonetheless, it's too bad I've had to "do it on my own", outside of just having loved ones to talk to. My brain is "avant garde" (if you will....please do) in my estimation. It also seems to be programmed with software that is incapable of being "updated" in a region/s of my brain responsible for "staying out of my own way."
  5. Obsessions: Obsessing about the idea of never "getting better" psychiatrically in a general sense - depression/OCD "What if things get so bad that I want to kill myself?"- this unwelcome guest has mostly been kept off the cerebral premises in recent times; knock on wood. Also, I have (moderate) BDD and OCD so they hang out together - likely they are FWB. A thematic disturbing thought has been "what if I look in the mirror one day and I decide I'm just (average looking, not good looking enough to have any value to myself, and similarly insidiously superficial ruminations)". Fortunately, this Draconian critic has mellowed over time. I've gotten deeper into being mindful recently and this seems one of the best orientations for some when it comes to problem with the mind. Though not disturbing, and even part of my "schtick" to some extent, I will come across a word or phrase (song?) and find myself saying it at random times, adding affectation to my voice or whatever. Sometimes no affectation. I'm can't describe it better ATM; It's an idiosyncracy that goes largely unexamined and attributed to my being a quirky S.O.G. Obsessions that have mostly/completely abated or otherwise been rerouted to Hell in a hand basket: "I just had the thought of killing my parents. Is this a sign I'm in the early stages of schizophrenia? Am I dangerous?" "I have images of guns and $&*! in my head. There is something wrong and I don't know what it is." My first obsession at 17: "What if the LSD (which was probably underdosed and did nothing but cause anxiety) permanently changed my brain? I've ruined my mind." I've not struggled with the imagery and harm thoughts for some time. They are 99% buried...May they not rest in peace.
  6. Hey there. Looks like you may not be checking these responses out anymore, but if you do, my thoughts. Part of your identity is (currently) based on your being a ruminating machine. Modifying thinking, I'll bet, for someone like yourself and myself to a degree is similar to quitting smoking..maybe. I understand maladaptive pathology as I've considered what it would be like to not care about looking good - I have moderate BDD (and OCD). Over time, I've become more comfortable in my own skin, and while looking in the mirror always takes more energy than it should, I more often accept and like the way I look than I used to. There can be a strange dichotomy when it comes to maladaptive values, compulsions, thinking, etc. The idea of their absence can cause an identity crisis or some other dilemma despite the fact the maladaptiveness is toxic and ruining your life.
  7. Hi y'all, just want to discuss stimulants and OCD. I'm somewhat perplexed by my positive response to Adderall, Vyvanse, etc. I have OCD, but have been prescribed amphetamines for last 2 years for what's believed to be ADHD (the "inattentive" flavor - based on symptoms from my childhood to present). Stimulants aren't a complete solution for my OCD by any means, but they do help. The generality I've read and heard is that stimulants promote OC/anxiety in those with OCD but may actually be calming in those with ADHD. I'm an enigma pretty much anyway so my being the exception would be no surprise. I've had OCD since 17. There is considerable crossover in symptoms of the two - ruminative, distracted, etc. Conversely, studies seem to indicate the part of the brain implicated in OCD is the same for ADHD - the difference is overstimulation with OCD and understimulation in ADHD. Ostensibly this has given rise to the idea they cannot be comorbid conditions. Regardless, it seems they can coexist. I've not had therapeutic response from OCD using SSRI's or SNRI's after taking them over a 15 year period. FWIW, I had a genome performed which indicated SSRI's are contraindicated for me. Additionally, I've found cannabis (sativa dominant) in light/moderate amounts to be helpful. Incidentally, weed for OCD is a wild card I'm sure. Any experience/anecdotes/other?
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