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  1. That pretty much describes 'scouse'. People from Liverpool are named after that dish and it used to be an insult, but now they own it and are proud to be scousers. Never had it myself but wikipedia describes the recipe as "fairly broad, it was traditionally made from leftovers and whatever was in season at the time." Which isn't much of a recipe. Throw any old shit into a pan and you've got scouse. Of yes I meant the WWE type of thing. Shaved men in tight pants. Too homoerotic for me. Gay porn for the inhibited. Just watch some gay porn! They're being far nicer to each other in those films instead of pretending to hurt each other. I used to do some martial arts training many years ago. Got to orange belt. I didn't really have the killer instinct. Plus I started sprouting facial hair around that time and could get served in pubs. Bit of a dilemma. I went with Oliver Reed rather than Bruce Lee.
  2. Other methods to take out the aggression you feel towards yourself? Exercise can be good. A healthy way to make yourself hurt, as long as you don't get carried away. It can help a bit. Speaking from experience.
  3. Mothers day. Where my brother asks me to chip in for some flowers and we all pretend that she's not a destructive bitch who we can't stand. No strong supportive bond there. I don't know if that sounds cold to other people. You have to love your mother don't you? Yeah thanks for squeezing me out of your vagina and all but it all went downhill from there. You're supposed to respect your parents for bringing you into the world. Like they fucked for your benefit. They weren't thinking of you when you were conceived. My parents were just rubbish but I've heard this argument from people who have been physically abused. "I brought you in to this world". You want a round of applause for having sex, like you were going to fucking do anyway? Thanks for not resisting the natural urge which has led to the procreation of our species over thousands of years, and which millions of people have also done. So fuck that! I remember someone talking about how his father hit him. He brought them into this world and blah blah blah. Like jizzing makes you a father. Oh what a sacrifice you made! And I want to kick the shit out of someone who does such things to their kids. You aren't a mother or a father just because you had sex and procreated. There's more to it and mine failed. So I ended up an emotionally damaged human being. Can't trust a mother's love then who can you trust? Never trust anyone. Especially yourself.
  4. Was that league or union rules? Don't know the difference between the two so answer however you want. It was rugby league, they were all riding hippos. Oh is that the difference? I thought it was something to do with scrums or something like that. Scrums, for those who are unaware of the term, are an opportunity for beefy heterosexual men to touch each other, or something. Talking of repressed homosexuality, wrestling. If it's not a real sport (which it isn't) then what is it? I think of it as a form of violent ballet for rednecks who are stuck in the closet. I want to see big sweaty oiled up men rolling around and pretending to fight! Hulk Hogan is a gay icon with that tash. We have big rivalries between football teams, most of which are owned by a rich foreigner and have mostly foreign born players. Not that it would make any difference to me if they were all local, would just make that 'we' sound a little less tenuous. I don't even give a shit about the Olympics. That's where nations of the world compete every four years in order to prove their genetic superiority or something like that. And they're against the use of drugs? Let them use drugs. That'll make it interesting. The 100 metres is just a bunch of people running in a straight line. Get the Russian runner so pumped full of drugs that he breaks the sound barrier and goes back in time after he crosses the finish line and nearly fucks his own mother 25 years in the past (Back to the Future reference there).
  5. Self-acceptance. I find that impossible. I'm usually running away from myself because I don't want this shit. It doesn't work though. And if you can't accept yourself then why would anyone else want anything to do with you? This sounds self-pitying already. That's something which can make it difficult to talk. Not trying to sound dramatic. Shitty thoughts like this are my version of normal. I don't think I've ever experienced being normal and mentally healthy. But that sounds fucking dramatic doesn't it? Poor me. But that's not what I intend to get across. And that "poor me" is what I mean. I don't want to sound tragic or anything, but it's my normal. I'm not making any sense am I?
  6. I hope that everyone else got that Hitchhiker's Guide reference because it was very good. I like you already. Hello fellow nutter!
  7. Maybe it's nothing to do with men and women. People can just be terrible to each other irrespective of genitalia. For you it's fingernails, for me it was often sport. Pointless crap which I tried to care about for the sake of fitting in. I don't fucking care though. We lost! We won! Who is this "we" you're talking about? But men have to care about sports. Not a girly girl. Ha! Fair enough. Who gives a flying fuck about fingernails anyway? I don't know if I'm a manly man. I don't care about sports and I don't know what a carburetor is. What sort of man am I? But like I've said, masculinity can be ridiculous anyway. I guess femininity can be equally dumb. The things some women do to their bodies in pursuit of beauty. High heels. God they look uncomfortable. Wear something more practical and comfortable! But when women do such things it's not to please men, it's more often about competing with other women. I've talked about cankles before. I thought that was a joke at first. Women are worried that their ankles are too fat? Seriously? And men do objectivise women, and that's a problem. But I'm certain that men didn't invent the concept of cankles.
  8. Depends on the book. I have read The Da Vinci Code, and that's not great literature. And then the man said something and did something. Something to do with the Catholic church I think. You mean the Catholic church may be a force for evil. Yeah no fucking shit. But then there's great novelists like Dostoevsky and Kafka. You get inside someone's head reading their work. Shakespeare. Always so much to absorb. I'm probably sounding like some wanky intellectual creaming over books. I like reading. Might be better than having friends. I wouldn't know. Don't end up like me. Ha!
  9. That's a surprisingly common thing I've heard from women. I thought you were the gentler sex 😁. Someone once said that a misogynist is a man who hates women as much as women hate each other. Is that really true? Men do seem to be more simple in their relationships. Physical punishment is much simpler than the psychological torture women inflict on each other. Is it really that bad? Is everything I've just said bullshit? You're tender creatures aren't you? You like flowers and kittens and shit like that. I know that's all bullshit. I'm talking crap. I've found more in common with women than I have with men. Fucking masculinity.
  10. Nah. Still early days in my course. I've just completed year 0, because it's a degree course for those not following the standard route and there's an extra year tagged on. I think I know what you mean though. The sort of unconscious bias which is shown through reaction times to stimuli or something like that. Or I may be thinking of something completely different. One thing which bothered be while researching this topic was reading about benevolent and hostile sexism. I'm not a hostile sexist, but am I guilty of benevolent sexism? I think I have commented somewhere that women tend to be nicer human beings than men, and they are aren't they? Name your top three arseholes who you'd put against the wall if you were king or queen. Probably all men. Not that every man is like that, but I'm not proud to share the same genitalia sometimes. But doesn't that lead to a view of women as being the "gentler sex"? Am I a benevolent sexist? Maybe I should try to behave worse towards women in order to not be sexist. I'm not going to do that. I'm talking shit and this is an intellectual brain fart. Don't overthink things. I could go on but I'll shut up now.
  11. Hah! You may regret asking. Probably boring. Women are generally treated more leniently in the criminal justice system because they're only women and can't be held responsible for their actions in the same way as men. Not being a dick but that's basically chivalry theory. Most judges are male, and female judges give different verdicts. Also tend to be more racist for some reason. Anyway, what's the use of studying psychology if you can't fuck with people's heads? So I came up with an experiment where men would give judgements on what they thought was a suitable sentence for female criminals. But the experimental group would see a woman verbally kicking the shit out of a male before doing this, thereby undermining the idea that women are weak and tender creatures. Presumably they'd judge women more harshly after this. Which sounds bad when I put it like that. But that view of women more often leads to discrimination. "The poor, dear, fragile things" type of shit. She's just a woman. Reverse discrimination when it comes to criminality. One of the few perks of patriarchy. Am I being boring yet?
  12. Been pretty awful lately. Hopefully getting over it thanks to beer and cheap wine. Well not just that. Goes through phases and I think (hope) I'm at the end of this one. Everyone hates me. Everything is worthless. Why not plan your suicide? It gets boring thinking like that, which provides another reason to hate myself. Same old tedious bullshit you fucking prick! Why can't you fucking like yourself you arsehole? And I always react in the same stupid way. Isolate, try to limit the input to your fucked up brain, control your emotions! Push them down and stamp on them. Examine everything you say for any hint of crazy and find fault in everything you do. It's never worked in the past but maybe this time. Asking for help never really occurs to me at times like these. It's like I've shit myself, and while it would be easier if I asked someone if they had a spare pair of trousers I really don't want anyone to know that I've shit myself. Terrible analogy. Doesn't make much sense. I don't want to talk about it is what I'm saying, although that's exactly what I'm doing now. So my point is? I don't know. Saw this a while back and I like it.
  13. I haven't cut myself for years. I do understand the urge, and it does come back sometimes. Pretty strongly on occasions. I want to make myself fucking hurt. But I haven't. Not a good way to cope with feelings, and I already have enough scars to be ashamed of. That wasn't useful. Sorry.
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