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  1. Thank you. I do have someone I can talk to and no I was on only Zoloft for awhile but I quit cause I knew it wasn’t working, my dad always brags about how he literally never cries but I still cry every now and then it’s just very rare. I’m just hoping there is a way where I can cry and see if it helps.
  2. I don’t know really how to talk about this or describe what’s going on but lately I’ve been really depressed and just really low except for a few occasions but after that I slip back down into this depression. Often I get very stressed or anxious over multiple things or sometimes I’ll just be really upset or sad and I want to cry so bad but I can’t. I just really want to cry and I’m not trying to hold it back but something is and it’s such a difficult thing and I don’t know why it happens. I feel weird saying that I want to cry but it just feels so good but whenever I need to I can’t.
  3. I do not at the moment cause I just moved but I am currently looking around, I was hoping that someone might know of any self help methods.
  4. As of recently I just moved back to Nebraska as some of you know and for the most part I would say I’m happy, except I’ve been struggling really hard with intrusive thoughts and I dont know what I can do anymore. I am a student aide in a special education class and often when I’m pushing a student in a wheelchair I get these intrusive thoughts that say “what if I take this corner really fast and maybe tip him/her over” or “take this corner as fast as possible” I would never do such things and I get thoughts like these constantly throughout the day and I’m going insane I can’t deal with them much longer but I don’t know how to avoid them or make them stop.
  5. Yeah Zoloft was the first thing I tried, I also tried lamictal but that did me no good. After I’m settled in after I move here in a few days I’ll see what I can do to get something useful.
  6. Yeah it really sucks ass but I’m hoping to find a much better doctor/physiatrist who can help me better.
  7. It has been quite the struggle if I’m being honest but I have had the help and advice from a coworker who was able to help me out and show me what was going on.
  8. He said he wanted me to just try Zoloft, I’m never trying that again and I don’t know why he would suggest it. We are finding a new doctor and hopefully specialist once we move.
  9. Yeah I managed to only walk away with a concussion. At this point once we get to where we move (this upcoming Monday) im gonna keep pestering my parents to take me to an actual specialist and fix this. Im kinda done with all the mania and depression. And the old family doctor said he wanted me to try Zoloft (never trying that again). Why he said I should try that I have no idea but I’m gonna make sure they take me to someone who actually knows what I could benefit from and not send me into mania.
  10. So the thing is that yes I have been diagnosed BP1, but my parents don’t like going to specialists (I have no idea why) so they aren’t the best when it comes to this but I have been working on some self help methods and a coworker of mine gave me a bipolar workbook which has been very helpful. That should/hopefully get me through the year and then I can get some real help.
  11. Well not exactly... I’m in the middle of moving states in a few days and in my last manic swing I totaled my car.
  12. No I understand and totally agree, I just exactly have the most supportive parents.
  13. I’ve been going to a family doctor cause my parents don’t like going to a specialist and this doctor is very hesitant. Right now the plan is to just keep moving forward and get real help when I’m out of the house.
  14. I am also, I used to only take Zoloft which did actually help the depression but once I started my mania took off and had no intention of stopping
  15. To be totally honest things around me are going fairly well, for whatever reason I still remain depressed. I recently got out of a manic phase so this was expected and now I’m just trying to get through.
  16. I have BP1 and often times I’m not sleeping whether I’m depressed or manic but when I’m stable I’ve noticed that I start to get very realistic dreams where I’ll have to wake up and try to remember if that actually did happen or if it is just a dream because they are very realistic and could happen. I’ve also noticed that they happen for about a week and then I start to feel manic and go into mania. Can anyone relate to this? Is this just a coincidence or is this something to do with the disorder that I don’t understand yet?
  17. I currently don’t have a therapist and I’m about to move states so I no longer have a doctor, at the moment it feels like I’m just forever stuck in one place mentally.
  18. I'm not suicidal, at least I don't think I am at the moment. I do have plans in place for if something goes wrong but i'm fully aware I wont act on them. But if someone were to pull a gun on me or something like that, I would most likely tip him. I'm not actively trying to kill myself, but I would not mind dying. Can anyone else relate or am I going crazy?
  19. Based on my previous experiences, these both sound like hallucinations. I would talk to your doctor about these things and possibly being put on a anti psychotic.
  20. I do know that it is bad to only be on antidepressants but at the moment and my current situation its all i am able to get, for the most part I just try to put myself in situations that will lessen the negative impacts of mania. I do hope to give lamictle another try once I am out of the house.
  21. I was diagnosed by our family doctor and my parents “don’t believe” in specialists so my plan for now is just to wait till I’m out of the house
  22. I have bipolar 1 and I’m currently 17 but I don’t have the support of my parents and they don’t like the idea of me using meds so until I’m out of the house I am forced to look for any methods of self help that could possibly help me. Any suggestions?
  23. 1. I tried to drift around a corner and ended up falling 25 feet down into a ravine and totaling my car. 2. I once ripped the sink off my wall because I was upset my hair wouldn't flip the right way. 3. I currently own 10 pairs of shoes and regret 8 of them. There's much more I chose to forget
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