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  1. I wanted to cross post this here from the depression forum, I think it's better fitting here. Hopefully that's okay. I've struggled with anxiety, depression, social anxiety, obsessive thinking most of my adult life with some pretty severe depressive episodes in there. I was on prozac for about 8 years, then pristiq for 1 year until I had my worst depressive episode ever (situation triggered) and went to a psychiatrist that tried all sorts of different medicines for his guess at what my condition was (said I was bipolar, schizo, psychotic depression and threw many meds at me I can't even remember). He was a big pusher of CBT, and since that didn't work with pristiq he thought it was more than just depression. I didn't agree with his diagnosis of any of those conditions and still don't. Anyway, nothing helped, he moved his practice and I self tapered myself off all the medications with no change in mood. About six months later I was depression free for about 3 years. Then came my episode that was different from all the others, it wasn't triggered by a situation. I just slowly sank into depression and social anxiety--went on effexor 150mg with my family doctor and that lifted it for the next 3 years. My current episode was sparked from a break up, which caused me to get mild panic attacks and situational depression, which now has lead me into a pretty deep and dark severe depression (staying in bed every second I possible can before I have to get up and face the world). Also pretty bad social anxiety, but that was mildly present before the breakup. My family doctor up'd the effexor to 225mg and tried hydroxyzine and buspar with no effect. Then we added xanax .5mg up to three times daily ( I never take that much, usually just one .5mg midday or none at all). That helped enormously with the panic attacks and anxiety. I do think the next day the depression does seem to be worse though. With the depression still pretty heavy, we added quetapine 50mg at night. I tried it for a month and some of the depression lifted but I was left in a haze and terrible drowsiness, especially in the morning. He pushed that we try it a little longer and if the drowsiness didn't go away, call in for something else. I called in for permission to go off it and not trying anything else for a while, but the next two weeks left me in bed all day and when I was up, I was in crying spells and feeling miserable. Absolutely dreading doing anything outside of my house and being in misery while there. It's been pretty rough, but the crying spells have lifted and the depression isn't as bad now. At my last visit, my doctor had talked about adding Wellbrutrin, but was worried it would worsen the anxiety. I mentioned adding Remeron; he wasn't very familiar with it, but said we could try it if I like. He's open to my suggestions so that's really helpful I think. After doing some research on Remeron, it seems to also cause drowsiness so I may try and avoid it. I have an appointment scheduled for this Friday. What are some recommendations I can suggest? I've been in therapy ever since the breakup, been trying meetup and other social activities because I know being social does help with my own depression, even though it takes enormous willpower to do it. I've tried to add exercise but can't find the will power to continue it. With that said, I do spend a lot of time doing absolutely nothing and avoiding the world. A friend popped over unexpected and that sent me into an anxiety attack (I didn't answer the door) but they came back later after the xanax calmed me down I had the house cleaned up. Thank you so much.
  2. I've struggled with anxiety, depression, social anxiety, obsessive thinking most of my adult life with some pretty severe depressive episodes in there. I was on prozac for about 8 years, then pristiq for 1 year until I had my worst depressive episode ever (situation triggered) and went to a psychiatrist that tried all sorts of different medicines for his guess at what my condition was (said I was bipolar, schizo, psychotic depression and threw many meds at me I can't even remember). He was a big pusher of CBT, and since that didn't work with pristiq he thought it was more than just depression. I didn't agree with his diagnosis of any of those conditions and still don't. Anyway, nothing helped, he moved his practice and I self tapered myself off all the medications with no change in mood. About six months later I was depression free for about 3 years. Then came my episode that was different from all the others, it wasn't triggered by a situation. I just slowly sank into depression and social anxiety--went on effexor 150mg with my family doctor and that lifted it for the next 3 years. My current episode was sparked from a break up, which caused me to get mild panic attacks and situational depression, which now has lead me into a pretty deep and dark severe depression (staying in bed every second I possible can before I have to get up and face the world). Also pretty bad social anxiety, but that was mildly present before the breakup. My family doctor up'd the effexor to 225mg and tried hydroxyzine and buspar with no effect. Then we added xanax .5mg up to three times daily ( I never take that much, usually just one .5mg midday or none at all). That helped enormously with the panic attacks and anxiety. I do think the next day the depression does seem to be worse though. With the depression still pretty heavy, we added quetapine 50mg at night. I tried it for a month and some of the depression lifted but I was left in a haze and terrible drowsiness, especially in the morning. He pushed that we try it a little longer and if the drowsiness didn't go away, call in for something else. I called in for permission to go off it and not trying anything else for a while, but the next two weeks left me in bed all day and when I was up, I was in crying spells and feeling miserable. Absolutely dreading doing anything outside of my house and being in misery while there. It's been pretty rough, but the crying spells have lifted and the depression isn't as bad now. At my last visit, my doctor had talked about adding Wellbrutrin, but was worried it would worsen the anxiety. I mentioned adding Remeron; he wasn't very familiar with it, but said we could try it if I like. He's open to my suggestions so that's really helpful I think. After doing some research on Remeron, it seems to also cause drowsiness so I may try and avoid it. I have an appointment scheduled for this Friday. What are some recommendations I can suggest? I've been in therapy ever since the breakup, been trying meetup and other social activities because I know being social does help with my own depression, even though it takes enormous willpower to do it. I've tried to add exercise but can't find the will power to continue it. With that said, I do spend a lot of time doing absolutely nothing and avoiding the world. A friend popped over unexpected and that sent me into an anxiety attack (I didn't answer the door) but they came back later after the xanax calmed me down I had the house cleaned up. Thank you so much.
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