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  1. @mikl_pls, thank you! You are amazing. Here's what we have available (all ADHD medication) in NZ: https://www.pharmac.govt.nz/wwwtrs/ScheduleOnline.php?code=A223101 So I see there are other options for methylphenidate. 

    I emailed my pdoc to tell him about my response to both 20mg and 40mg. He has instructed me to just stick to 20 for now, until our next meeting (which thankfully is in a couple of weeks). He mentioned possibly adding another 10mg somehow so I guess it might mean switching to Ritalin LA which I know we have here in various doses. We only have SR in 20mg (from what I can see. I could be wrong. I get very confused about all this stuff). I think pdoc wants to avoid IR at this time because my response to bupropion was so crazy. 

    I am glad at least that this med is not amping me up (as he said that people who don't need it just get stimulated) and that I am experiencing the beneficial effects I hoped for, just not enough. So now I guess we just keep tweaking until I get something that works well enough. I am a bit hesitant to try an amphetamine. Again because of my horrible bupropion experience. Methylphenidate does increase my heartbeat but without the insane thumping I had on bupropion. So I can cope with it. 

    Thanks everyone for your input and help. :)

  2. Hey all. I've been taking methylphenidate SR for a week now - 20mg once a day. Today in accordance with my psychiatrist's instructions, I have increased that to 20mg twice a day. My psychiatrist said that if it's not right for me I'll feel high, and if it is right for me I'll feel more calmed and focused. 

    When taking once a day, I didn't notice any negative effects except maybe a headache (could have been something else though). The change was subtle but I noticed I have been able to talk more easily with people I don't know well (or anyone really). More conversational and I just find it easier to speak. I also have had a bit more focus and motivation to do things, but not heaps. My fatigue and sleepiness has felt better although I still feel tired at times. 

    Now today, after taking the afternoon dose (and remember it's my first one), I feel weird. I have a headache. I feel dizzy/drowsy right behind my eyes. Almost like I'm tipsy and I want to go to sleep. I wrote an email to a friend earlier and had to go back and read it again as I found I couldn't remember what I'd written. 

    Is this to be expected upon first starting the increased dose? Will my body adjust or does it not work that way? This is the very first time I've been on a stimulant and I have no idea if this is a sign that it's right for me or if I shouldn't take it. Even writing out this post now I feel a bit scrambled and can't quite feel a grasp on what's in my mind (though I seem to be writing coherently so that's good!). 

    Any information or experiences with this med would be greatly appreciated as I'd like to understand it. 😊 Thanks so much. 

    Edit: I forgot to mention that despite feeling weird I feel super calm. My daughter had a massive screaming tantrum and it didn't bother me at all when normally it would irritate the shit out of me. But I'm really calm and not bothered by anything. (maybe part of feeling sedated?) 

  3. On 4/4/2020 at 4:34 AM, mikl_pls said:

    Well, sometimes the washer would get off balance and start thrashing around. That used to terrify the ever living shit out of me.

    This is an absolutely valid fear. I still get freaked out when a washing machine moves LOL. Not to the extent of the distress you felt as a kid. I think I have a weird phobia of inanimate objects moving. 

  4. I too had this problem on every SSRI I took and I tried a HEAP of them before finally getting into the mental health service (rather than just first-line GP) and was able to try other types. It's such a frustrating problem. I always found them emotionally dulling (which everyone complains about, but I actually liked having a more flat and even mood, just less reactive I guess) and I wonder if it's just the fact that they smooth out your emotions which makes you care about less things and therefore are less motivated. I dunno. I took venlafaxine (effexor) for a while and I don't recall if I was tired or not, I wasn't on it long... the norepinephrine I guess helps it be more activating. Has anyone experienced the tiredness and lethargy from venlafaxine? Aside from @Blahblah :) I just really can't recall.

    The only things so far that have helped with lethargy are getting completely off SSRIs and trying bupropion and now moclobemide. Bupropion was too activating and my anxiety shot through the roof, but man I was productive and I just didn't need naps anymore. Now on moclobemide I do have more normal energy levels so I do nap sometimes but it's usually only for 20/30 mins max (as opposed to 3 hours when I was on SSRIs!). I can get through a day now and not feel like I have bricks attached to my feet and hands and a cloud in my head. 

  5. 13 hours ago, DogMan said:



    Scotty From Marketing (Our Prime Minister, Scott Morisson) is giving pensioners 2 x $750


    This is not to stimulate pensioners in any way. The idea is the "we" are crap with money, and will spend recklessly, thereby stimulating the economy. Higher income earners would apparently do stupid things, like make mortgage and credit card payments


    The trouble is, I want for nothing ATM. Maybe in part from junk mail ceasing, adverts incresingly being virus related etc.


    So far, I have $200 earmarked for a nice, Australian single malt whiskey. 1 bottle lasts me a year or two. But that is Aussie made that I can buy.


    I have enough guilt being on disability already, now the cunt gives us $1500 and leaves out most of the population

    Not to be offensive but your PM is very odd. It sounds like you wouldn't be offended by that however. 

    6 hours ago, Blahblah said:

    Any thoughts about when each country will go back to "Business as usual"?

    Realistically, if governments want people safe and alive, it will be a VERY long time. NZ is in complete lockdown for the next three weeks, and that will probably be extended another two weeks. Data modelling has suggested that any time a lockdown ends, the virus will just spread again and another lockdown will be needed. We may end up with an extended period of lockdown, back to business, lockdown, back to business and so on. 

    But who really knows. If we eradicate it here that would be wonderful, but then the economy...? Our govt is already saying we will be in a very hard recession after all this. 

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  6. I'd suggest trying to accept that gaining weight during a stressful time is OK, and focus on doing things that make you feel happy and less stressed. Definitely find exercise that you enjoy, as we all know that has proven benefits. But try to take the focus from "don't gain weight" to "look after myself and keep myself happy". If you are less stressed you are likely to do less binge eating too. I know it's upsetting to have everything turned upside down right now but your mental wellness is the top priority (aside from staying isolated). ❤️ 

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  7. 14 minutes ago, companion_cube said:

    Thanks for clarifying. That's more restrictive than my country. Here we have physical distance rules, a ban against grouping together in public and closure of restaurants/bars/sportclubs. However there don't seem to be domestic travel restrictions (at least up until now).

    Our government is taking it super seriously as it's just going to snowball and overwhelm our hospitals if we don't take really restrictive measures. I think it's good, but it's also scary to be going through. 

  8. 1 hour ago, companion_cube said:

    Pardon me asking, but what exactly does "lockdown" mean? Does it only mean that your country is closed to travellers from other countries, or does it mean that you have to literally lock yourself up in your house and not go outside?

    All of the above. Our entire country has been told to stay home, only essential services like supermarkets and medical centres etc can stay open. We've been put into a state of emergency so that the police can reprimand anyone not obeying physical distancing rules. We're not allowed to drive anywhere except to essential services. We can go outside for walks but have to stay 2 metres away from anyone else. Everything is closed, even playgrounds. And yes our borders are closed to international travel. All domestic travel is banned. 

  9. Praise makes me feel negative sometimes too. It's taken me years of work to smile and say "thank you" and try to really take in what someone is saying about me, accepting it as their truth, even if I don't think the same. I think some people experience Impostor Syndrome quite badly. Praise can make you anxious because you're thinking "oh no, they've got it wrong about me, what if they find out I'm not as good as they think I am?". This is anxiety-inducing for sure. 

  10. Well the other night I got teary TWICE while watching Franklin (the Turtle) with my daughter. Not full on crying, though.

    The end of Stranger Things season 3 had me crying, lol.

    Sophie's Choice?

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  11. I am so worried about this I feel like crying. I usually have an overeating problem which bupropion has recently made heaps better. Since bupropion gives me bad anxiety I was prescribed buspirone but it hasn't helped enough so my pdoc has given me pregabalin. I'm really worried it'll make me overeat again. I'm feeling really triggered right now after attending a wedding on the weekend and feeling like I looked really fat in my dress, so this worry about pregabalin is making me want to skip meals. Is weight gain pretty much a given? My pdoc didn't tell me before giving me the prescription. :(

  12. Keep in mind there is some debate about whether supplements do anything at all, or anything close to what they advertise. (otc supplements i mean) 

    I was like you when I was on SSRIs. The worst was sertraline. On 300mg bupropion I feel normal and can do stuff. This is why I got off SSRIs completely... Well one reason. I was checked for EVERYTHING that would cause fatigue and nothing ever came up. 

  13. 7 hours ago, Blahblah said:

    But then there are those hypnagogic hallucinations (I have once in awhile), sometimes  I'd wake up and have the feeling something heavy, malevolent energy (like not human) was sitting/constricting my chest, I could not move, run, or wake up and when I tried to scream nothing would come out. Then upon waking, I actually could hear my voice, so I was indeed trying to scream. Terrifying. That in-between state.

    This is sleep paralysis I think. I used to get it a lot when stressed. Hardly ever happens now. Only if I get dehydrated while sleeping, weird eh? It's the result of beginning to regain consciousness before the brain's "paralysing chemicals" wear off. (the brain paralyses us when sleeping so we are not physically acting out our dreams.) Interesting eh!! I felt so much better about it after learning what it actually was. 

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