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  1. You could ask about a Lurasidone + Vortioxetine combo? There are studies showing that that combo has helped people with Schizophrenia with cognitive difficulties. I'm not sure about dosages. This combo was used for people who were considered treatment-resistant, even to Clozapine. If your doctor said you have psychotic depression then you'll need to be on an anti-depressant for that. The psychosis goes away when the depression gets better. I think I read that psychotic depression has a pretty good prognosis. Rexulti made me have terrible headaches when I got up to 3 mg per day. My doctor at the time wanted to put me on 4 mg per day but I couldn't handle the side effects. Then I was labeled a "complex case". I was told Rexulti and Abilify are very similar. I'm not sure if Rexulti would help if Abilify isn't helping anymore.
  2. @dancesintherain I had to edit some stuff out of my post that you just replied to. Sorry about that. (stupid paranoia) I've been in an ambulance a few times. One of those times was when I was being transported to a psychiatric hospital from an ER. They strapped me down to the stretcher so I couldn't get up. But yeah, the hospitals I've been to... they always gave me the proper PRN med (between Zyprexa, Seroquel, Geodon in shot form, Ativan, Klonopin, or Xanax). Which was good to keep me calm throughout the ordeal. I couldn't imagine being brushed off like that! Being in the hospital is hard enough as it is. At least for me. I try my best to keep out of the hospital nowadays. Sometimes it feels like I can't hide my symptoms from my boyfriend or doctor though. But I always remember to never bring up the S word ever again.
  3. I didn't say you had BPD. I was just explaining what I had read about the relationship between Complex PTSD and BPD and why the hospital might have thought that. They present similarly is what I've read. But you are right, they should have given you a real PRN med to help ease your anxiety. I would have been livid actually! I've been diagnosed with regular PTSD numerous times but I don't feel like it fits my symptoms at all. I don't feel overly traumatized by what happened to me before, which were a handful of events throughout mostly adulthood. The main being when some people broke into my home while I was still home and held a gun to my head and robbed me.
  4. I've never heard of Lamictal as a PRN med. I thought it had to build up in your system to work at all. I did notice in your signature that it says "Complex PTSD". That isn't a diagnosis in the DSM V at all. But according to studies, it was a disorder that has the same symptoms as BPD. Maybe that's why the hospital said that? I'm not sure. But the standard treatment for BPD is usually therapy and not meds. But I think meds can help if you have co-morbid disorders. I don't really know though. Don't quote me on that because I am just re-iterating stuff I read online!
  5. I've been off and on various name brand meds... Vraylar… Rexulti… Trintellix... Latuda... and currently am taking brand name only Klonopin. I'm on disability and qualify for some programs that pay all my co-pays and co-insurance costs... I don't pay anything for my meds (including name brand ones).
  6. Feel like getting out and doing something. Nice and sunny out. I always feel like I'm "missing out on life" when it's nice out and I stay indoors.
  7. I've been on daily Klonopin for around 3 years or so now. I, too, would be non-functional without it. But the only way it works well for me is for me to take it throughout the day at specific intervals (used to be 3 times per day, now 2 times per day). All the initial side effects wore off after some time and I don't have any side effects that I know of anymore. It just keeps the Panic Disorder in check. If I miss a dose or 2, I end up with a huge panic attack and my vision starts to get really weird (objects, floors, and walls start to grow and shrink right in front of my eyes). I also have Lorazepam on board for those times where I become agitated by my anxiety/depression/psychosis or when the anxiety and panic try to break through the Klonopin barrier. I highly recommend Klonopin!
  8. When I have episodes of tachycardia and palpitations triggered by stress, 1 mg of Lorazepam will bring my heart rate back to normal (assuming my blood pressure too) within 30 minutes. It also slows my mind down back to normal. I have my benzos prescribed that way... one long-acting daily benzo and one short-acting PRN one. It works fantastically! Good idea
  9. Thank you. ❤️ I will let my Pdoc know of the situation.
  10. Thanks for your concern! I went back and re-read my post and removed it because it was embarrassing. I think I was a bit delirious from lack of sleep, lack of food/hydration, and had not taken my anxiety meds. Would it be possible for you to edit your post and edit out the part where you quoted me? I don't like reading what I wrote...
  11. I didn't even want to be on 2 benzos at the same time but my Pdoc deemed it necessary. 🤷‍♀️ (I literally keep bringing this up with my Pdoc and I get ignored!) I just don't like the idea of polypharmacy. I don't like that meds can have interactions or cause severe side effects when combined with other meds. I'm really terrified of Serotonin Syndrome, Neuroleptic Malignant Syndrome, and QT Prolongation. I actually was on a bigger cocktail in the past. Yeah, it did help but I felt... I don't know... I didn't like feeling dependent on so many meds. I can't remember exactly, but it was something like a combo of Lithium, Abilify, Zyprexa, Vistaril, Klonopin, and a few others which I think were anti-depressants maybe? I've also tried sooo many different meds in the past. I think the worst ones were Effexor XR, Paxil, and Latuda. That akathisia from Latuda was like nothing I had ever felt before. I'm supposed to be on Metformin for my Diabetes but I'm scared of developing Lactic Acidosis. I'm literally scared of all meds, even my benzos. I have alarms on my phone too for the few meds I take but sometimes I turn the alarms off because I can't be bothered to get out of bed. I'm a real wreck right now. My SO keeps saying that he will have to force me to take my pills because I am acting "crazy". I'm rambling omg. I'm sorry...
  12. I feel okay-ish I guess. For now. I felt pretty talkative earlier. I want to go out and get an iced coffee and hope the voice doesn't pop up to tell me not to consume it for reasons.
  13. I don't have a huge cocktail like everyone else here, but I guess it's a combo of meds... (I am going to start my new meds either today or tomorrow) Aripiprazole - 5 mg a.m. / 5 mg p.m. Clomipramine - 25 mg p.m. Klonopin (Brand due to generic not working as well) - 1 mg a.m. / 1 mg p.m. Lorazepam - 1 mg PRN for breakthrough anxiety and/or panic attacks and/or agitation @mikl_pls How on earth do you keep track of all those meds? Do you use a med box and phone alarms and such? I couldn't do it. I'd have to have an in-home health aide come to my home to help me with my meds if that were the case. Very interesting seeing all the combos you've been on!
  14. Sorry, I edited my post because after asking that I felt it was inappropriate for me to ask. I'm sorry. I'm not sure though but they sound a bit like hypnogogic hallucinations that happen between waking up and when falling asleep. I have that too (not the black holes in the vision but other things). Have you ever had a sleepy study?
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