the maze runner

Hi @DogMan Actually I have ups and downs very rapidly cycling and there is always an extrenal trigger and I believe bipolar folks usually cycle up and down without any apparent reason. To be frank I think it's just normal. Besides the methylphenidate has given me enough of my mind back that I am able to work my job and I feel mostly happy.

I never had any bipolar problems. These days I am I guess 'over reacting' to things. Like someone says somthing I don't like I flare up and then become sad and if something goes my way I become excited. I don't understand if this is something that can be induced by meds. I am not even sure that my self diagnosis is correct or not. Like right now I am playing chess and listening to music and I feel like I am on top of the world. Soon a stray thought will come in and I will become despondent. Is this cyclothemia or am I reading too much into it. I am also not sticking to the Divalproex sodium that has been prescribed to me.

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My diagnosis is schizophrenia I am on clozapine(for psychosis and intrusive thoughts) methylphenidate(for cognition and fighting anhedonia) and Brintellix. My doc has also prescribed me divalproex sodium. Is it possible to figure out what is the specific thing he is trying to do by prescribing divalproex sodium and why I need it.

First listening to Sepsism then got amped up and started listening to this:

I take methylphenidate 3 times a day 10mg each time. I feel amazing about 1-2 hours after each dose but low other times. I have requested doc to give me long acting but he says in view of my schizophrenia diagnosis it would be unwise to give me long acting methylphenidate. He says I risk getting hospitalized again. What can I do in this situation.

These days bingeing on Hate Eternal for some reason. Also I upgraded my sound system to a brand new Sennheiser 560S and AudioQuest Dragonfly Black. It has a really smooth sound so far. Now I'm thinking I could have got a DragonFly Red for just a bit more but really it's hard to complain because the Black is also quite good. Maybe in another six months I will get the Red. If you want to listen to some brutal albums then do not pass up the opportunity to listen to these Brodequin is one of the benchmark bands in the Brutal Death Metal genre. They have created a unique sound which creates an atmosphere which is pretty pathological yet immersive This is something I am listening to lately and they really draw you in. It is a one man band and considered by many to be the best one man death metal outfit This is also on my playlist lately. Pretty good sound. Also has made it into my playlist and I will be listening to them for a while.

yes ComplicatedToad if growls and stuff put you off then recommending Brutal Death Metal would be a bit redundant. Try Hate Eternal they have some amazing albums(though they do have growls). The old masterpieces are truly timeless. Sepultura, Slayer, Pantera, Metallica etc. are all great.

Cool. Slayer, Cannibal Corpse, Napalm Death is all good stuff

Good to hear (no pun intended)

Thanks @DogManyour feedback is appreciated. I saw the inlay of an album by 'Broken Torso' and it said something to the effect that: 'Dedicated to all those who have found a way to live without hatred, greed and materialism'

If you like stuff like this: does that mean you are wrong in the head.

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