I’d love some insight and advice on my situation. I’ll keep it short and to the point:
I (stupidly) stopped my meds last year which consisted of an antidepressant + antipsychotic. Within 2 months of stopping the meds I seemed to have entered some kind of episode or perhaps that’s how I just am without meds? I am not sure...
OCD significantly worsened, insomnia worsened, suddenly became extremely irritable 24/7, suddenly getting into arguments with EVERYONE, staying up all night ranting and raving out loud about anything and everything that has ever pissed me off in the past and present, significant weight loss to the point my Pdoc asked if I was eating, stopped showering/brushing hair/etc at all and had to chop hair off due to severe matting, had the police called on me due to screaming meltdowns, daily meltdowns, daily headaches, fatigue, Pdoc stated paranoia and delusions... prescribed Zyprexa + antidepressant but have not taken either yet due to severe health anxiety.
Pdoc stating that if meds are not started willingly they would be filing for involuntary treatment.
Still in episode and it has been at least 5 months now.
What could be going on? I’m scared because I don’t feel the same anymore and I feel really bad for being so mean and nasty now.