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  1. Thanks. I guess I could go to a grocery store or convenience store every day and just buy a drink or one or two items. I hadn't thought of that for some reason. I usually only go shopping once a week and buy everything I need, obviously I can't do that every day, but I could buy a drink or another small item every day, like you said.
  2. I don't have any good advice other than I'm also terrified of running out of meds. None of mine are controlled though. The few times I've come close to running out, I've broken pills in half to make it last longer. I know this is not a good idea. I had to do this once when a prescription I ordered through an online pharmacy was 2 weeks late and I was scared to call my doctor ( which I know doesn't make sense either). I would bring this up with your prescriber and be blunt with them about your concern. Tell them "what happens if I run out of meds and there's a snowstorm and I can't make it to the pharmacy". Then see what they have to say. As your doctor they should be able to give you a straight answer or solution for this situation. I did this with my new psych and he was understanding.
  3. I've never been on prozac but I've been on paxil 10mg and 20mg. When I first started paxil, i had side effects of constipation, dizziness and fatigue. These went away after about a week. I never had any memory problems on paxil. Recently I switched from paxil to remerom because paxil stopped working for me.
  4. I'm now thinking of applying for some "work from home" call center jobs. But I'm worried that I won't get any social contact "in real life" and that this will negatively impact my mental health. I live alone, and if I don't go to work or somewhere in public every day, I start getting extreme anxiety and start feeling like I'm "going crazy" and "out of control". When I go out in public I get moderate anxiety, when I'm alone I get severe anxiety. I know this sounds "weird" but it's been like this for many years. Before COVID, I could at least go to the library or fast food restaurants if I felt like I needed social contact. Now with COVID, there aren't that many options. The library is closed, and the local coffee place doesn't allow dine in. Where can I go to get social contact, if I start working from home? I need to actually be around other people. Talking on the phone doesn't feel the same for me. I feel bad writing this and knowing that many people, for one reason or another, may be housebound and unable to get social contact at all. But knowing myself, I will end up in a mental health crisis if I don't be around other people, in real life, every day. Is there any way around this? Or should I stop considering "work from home" jobs?
  5. I've been in AA for about 9 years and now sober for 3 years. Right now I do online meetings through a website InTheRooms. I've done SMART before but there were not enough meetings near me. The important thing is to find a recovery method that works for you and stick with it.
  6. I took the test and it tested Positive for high FSH levels so I suspect I'm in perimenopause. I guess I'll bring this up with my doctor. The brand/manufacturer of the test is Reveal, google "reveal menopause test" if anyone is interested in trying it.
  7. I'm thinking of applying to work at an Amazon warehouse. Wondering if it will be too stressful for me. Anyone else worked for them? Was it too mentally or physically stressful?
  8. I would tell her. What happens if you start getting more severe symptoms when you're living together and she doesn't understand what's going on. I would tell her when you are both calm/getting along well.
  9. Thanks, I told him and he raised it to 30 so hopefully this will help
  10. I started Remeron/mirtazapine 15 mg a couple weeks ago. At first I took it at night like my psych said. Then I started taking it in the morning, because I was having anxiety during the day. It helped at first even though it made me a little sleepy. The past couple days, I've been taking it in the morning, it hasn't made me sleepy at all, and it hasn't been helping my anxiety. It's like it worked for me at first, now after 2 weeks it stopped working. I have a psych appointment today and I will tell him. I guess I'm just posting this as a rant. Like for some people it works as a sleeping pill, and I can't even tell that I took it anymore?? Maybe my psych can increase the dose and it will start working again.
  11. I ordered a menopause FSH test online for about $10. Basically you pee on a stick and it tells you if you are going through menopause. Anyone take a test like this before, and was it accurate for you?
  12. The vivid dreams got a lot better (less vivid) for me after those first few days. I definitely feel increased appetite but I've been trying to deal with it by eating healthy snacks (fruit and pretzels). So hopefully I won't gain too much weight. Not really sure if this med is helping me yet or not but I guess time will tell.
  13. I can identify with this. I have PTSD from being sexually assaulted. I had to accept that sexuality is part of being human. I can choose not to engage in sexual activities if I don't want to. A lot of sexual activities are triggering for me. But I had to accept that being sexually aroused is a normal biological function.
  14. I used nicotine gum to quit. I had to use nicotine gum for about a year which is longer than normal. I discussed this with my doctor at the time and she said it is better to chew the gum than smoke so I should use it as long as I needed to. Eventually i started to get a lot of mouth sores from it so I quit the gum. My insurance covered the cost of the gum 100% so as long as my doctor prescribed it, it was basically free.
  15. To answer your questions, Yes I would be ok with being on the receiving end of this because a lot of people don't understand mental illness, No I would not be ok with saying these things myself. I have heard some very hurtful things from a close friend about my past addictions (I'm in recovery now). I just let it go because he isn't an addict so I think his words came from ignorance. I guess it comes down to how much of your friendship is positive and how much is negative. If you have a positive relationship 90% of the time and negative (he makes hurtful comments) 10%, then I would try to keep up the friendship. If it is mostly negative then I would would drop him as a friend.
  16. I just started Remeron 15 mg a few days ago. So far the side effects have not been too bad except the weird and vivid dreams. This is listed as one of the side effects. Did anyone else have this? Did it go away eventually?
  17. So basically things got worse, I finally "bit the bullet" and starting seeing a psych, he prescribed Remeron. Tonight I will try my first dose and hopefully it helps.
  18. I had my dr appt. It was kind of weird. I was 100 percent honest about my symptoms. She didn't seem that concerned. Asked if i wanted to stay on the paxil. I said yes. Asked if i ever heard voices when no one was around. Because i told her i sometimes think i hear voices and then i realize its the neighbors. Asked if i get chest pain. I said yes. Then the appt was over and i got the same paxil prescription. The dr was nice but nothing really changed. I think she just wanted to make sure i wasn't a danger to myself or others. Now I'm having pms again, extreme anxiety and im confused and not sure what to do.
  19. Had two different episodes within 24 hours of temporarily losing vision. Since I already have bad eyes, went to the ER to at least figure out whether I was ok to drive or not. I don't need to get in an accident on top of everything else going on in my life right now. Had CAT scan and blood work done. Turns out I had dehydration. I know I should be happy that I don't have a brain tumor, but now I feel stupid that my problem could be solved by drinking more water. My insurance has a deductible of $2000. I'm "looking forward" to getting the bills. Glass of water = $0. CAT scan, blood work and ER visit = $2000?? Being a responsible person and trying to figure out if I would endanger others on the road and now I have to pay $$. Insurance sucks!
  20. So I found a psych using Psychology Today. We talked on the phone (free consultation) and I guess she does not think I have PMDD because I have symptoms all month, it's just worse during PMS. So maybe I have premenstrual exacerbation of my mental health issues. She was willing to see me for an intake but I told her I'm not ready for that yet. I'm just not ready to start over again with a new provider yet. So I will tell my PCP my symptoms at my next appt and maybe she can help. If she tells me she can't, and i have to see a gyn or psych, then I definitely will.
  21. Thanks i really appreciate the replies and i will update soon
  22. Thanks but i don't have a gyn right now. I looked for psych providers last night. I don't know. Im scared of seeing a psych and scared not to. Last time i saw a psych i had a bad reaction to a med and missed 2 days of work. My goal is not to miss work. Stressing out. What do you guys think? I think i will give my Pcp a chance to help me. I will be completely honest about my symptoms. Then if she tells me i have to see a psych i will.
  23. I was addicted to DXM a few years ago. I got counseling for it and believe me, the counselor took it seriously. There's even an episode of Intervention about it (if you watch that show). I think it was one of the early seasons and the addicts name was Ben. What helped me to quit is that I had to remind myself daily that doing it gave me horrible mood swings and angry outbursts.
  24. Thanks for the replies. I guess I don't really want to see a new provider at this point because I don't want to have to explain my past abuse (that caused the PTSD). So I wish my PCP could just handle my treatment. But maybe this is not realistic. Maybe I should just bite the bullet and try to find a psych. The situation right now is that I either have to get help or stop working. At least that is how it feels to me.
  25. i have been diagnosed with PTSD, GAD and depression by different professionals. I'm taking Paxil 20mg. It helps me for the most part. The problem is that around my period/during PMS, I feel like it does nothing for me. I think I have PMDD. Every time I have my period, for the last 5 years, I feel like my PMS gets worse and worse. I don't know how to keep on holding down a job. my next period should be at the end of July. My plan is to call in sick with the flu. I'm seeing the doctor on Aug 3. But I can't call in sick for a few days every month. During PMS, I shake, have severe anxiety, chest pains, crying, fear of leaving the house, I think basically I have nonstop panic attacks for 2-3 days. I don't know how i was able to keep working during this. For some reason, last month I felt like this was it, another month of this and I can not work anymore. But i need to work to support myself. In the past i've been on birth control but it made me depressed. i need help/advice on what to do. How to make my doctor understand? She is not a psych, just a primary care doctor. i live in a small town and don't even know if there are any psychiatrists near by.
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