I am on Paxil, Vraylar and Seroquel. I am apathetic. I am emotionally numb. I am creatively dead. And I don't know if I like it. Yes, I'm not suicidal or crying day in and day out like I would probably be without it but damn, I want to feel something! I want to be able to write again...write poetry... be me! I don't know what to do. It's the lesser of two evils. How have you compensated?