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  1. Hi, I was recently given a computerized test for ADD, my new psychiatrist said that this simple test would tell me if I have ADD or not. The test was basically 15 minutes of 1's and 2's either flashing on a computer screen or being spoken, all random, and I had to click a mouse every time a 1 was shown or spoken. I knew I made a few mistakes but basically felt like I had nailed it, I left the office thinking, well I don't have ADD! I just had my follow up appt yesterday, and she said that the results were "moderate to severe impairment" from ADD. I was actually shocked. My question is, how accurate do you think these computerized tests are? How many of you were diagnosed that way? I was googling one site said they are not necessarily any more accurate than any other way of testing. My pdoc believes in it enough that she gave me a script for low level Adderall. Thanks for any input!
  2. Good for you, you found the gold nugget in the pile of shit! Pain and loss can be a great motivating factor to putting our own lives back together! I understand the school thing, it always helped me too to have something to focus on and work hard on. If you feel you can go full time, I say go for it....
  3. Thanks guys! I hear you all, but that's why I wanted to give an update, because there are different expectations on people this time around, like you only have to do as much as you can do. Like not everyone participates in the chats. Plus, it's just 8 weeks, not a year like I think we all thought in the beginning, I know I did. Today in a live class he literally said that next time around, if someone can't do the live class for a week, or doesn't do the homework, it's fine, he just wants people to benefit. I am not at all here to pressure, just to give the inside scoop!
  4. Hi all. So, I've almost completed the Bipolar Advantage course, and I just wanted to give an update and more info about it because it was on this forum that I learned about it and was able to do the course, and we all were talking about it for a bit. This course has been hands down the most effective thing for my bipolar in terms of gathering tools I can use and understanding compared to anything that I've done to help myself (DBT, therapy, books, research, etc). I feel that I have no reason to resist the diagnosis ever again, because I actually feel that I have a better ability to deal with the symptoms and to function better, so I don't need to try so hard to "get rid of" it as I'd been valiantly trying to do! Turns out the whole course is just 8 weeks, not a whole year. If it really is still a "study", it's not obvious at this point, there are no hoops to jump through like studies usually have. It's better to look at it as a really fricken awesome online course to help you function better within your bipolar, no matter where you are in your diagnosis..... and it's free! Tom learned a lot through this group of people and is changing certain things for next time: it now will take just 15 minutes to sign up, not the long process it was this time; he won't be putting people out of the course for missing a week, and in fact this time won't be holding people to doing every part of the week's work (assignment plus online class). He's more concerned with people getting what they can out of it, and believes that even if they can't do all parts, they will still get something out of it (I believe this too). Btw, for anyone who'd heard rumors that he's in the "anti-med camp", this couldn't be further from the truth. Meds are part of our toolbox, and he talks about the dangers of not taking them when we need them. But the course isn't focused on meds, they are just one tool in many many tools we gathered to cope well with our bipolar. Tools I NEVER would have learned on my own, or I believe, anywhere else. The deadline to sign up for the next 8 week course that starts on January 15th is January 7th, so one more week! http://www.bipolaradvantage.com/
  5. I'd like to say that I will try to be dry all of December. I bought a few bottles of wine since I posted in here, and after each one, I thought, this just is so not worth it. Headaches, depression, the buzz wasn't even fun. And yet last night I really wanted wine. I don't get it. But, the last time was 11/30, so I could potentially stay off December...
  6. He said this was the toughest homework for the whole thing. It was a lot to think about!
  7. I don't necessarily know if it's a symptom associated with bipolar, but I could see it as possibly a way you've learned to cope when the anger is intense, basically a way of acting out. I'm not saying that this is a healthy coping mechanism, but people do express their anger in physical ways sometimes, whether it's taking the anger out on inanimate objects, other people or ourselves. Again, not saying this is healthy, but obviously it happens. My ways to take out extreme frustration or anger has been to dig my nails into myself, punch things or throw things. And yes, I've hit my head or banged it on the wall before. I've found that it's much more effective and less destructive to scream into a pillow....
  8. You could also be working on the assignments in a text document to paste them in once the site comes back on. If you need the questions to be working on, message me, I've got them in my head
  9. I just tried to go on to see the class time and it's still down....
  10. Along with what others have said, possibly too it's not necessary to see things in such a black and white way, such as "these ideas and plans are brilliant" or "these ideas were just crazy/invalid because they were a product of mania". Just because ideas were born or things were written while manic doesn't mean that they have no validity. Plenty of revolutionary thinkers/creators experienced plenty of failure and ridicule before they were either taken seriously or produced something that made a difference in the world. Bipolar doesn't have to negate all your plans or ideas. Trying to realize your dreams and failure are simply a part of life, not just for people with bipolar. Sometimes you have to fail and fail until you succeed, or another way to look at it is perhaps a life spent attempting to realize your dreams, even if they never come true, is better than just giving in and saying you have no hope to ever succeed because of a diagnosis. These are things I've been thinking about lately in looking back at my life and my many attempts to follow my various dreams, and my many failures. I'm glad I've given it my all every time!
  11. I have no idea how they plan to measure it, that's a good question. Hmmm, seems that everything we do in life has the possibility to be deflating when it doesn't turn out the way we dreamed it'd be, or we aren't able to make something happen the way we wanted it to happen. Really, that's my whole life I'd say! I just feel grateful for this opportunity and will do my best, even if I can't finish it I hope to get something out of it. That's all anyone can do with any situation or opportunity, just do their best...
  12. This is my limited understanding so far. He's been running the program and successfully helping people for 10 years, though it usually costs. The program is a whole year, and if you are willing/able to put the work into it you will get something out of it (kinda like DBT has a year commitment, and if you commit the time and work, you'll get positive results). It seems that Tuft's University has joined forces with him to create a research study out of it, I'm sure to see if there are truly scientifically measurable results. This means that those participating get the same program he's been running but for free. So if we are willing/able to put the work in and commit to a year, then we should see benefits in our lives. By the same token, we will be helping them get measurable results. So it's a win/win for all involved. BUT, if you can't put the work in, it messes up their data that they will be collecting over the year AND messes up your chances to get positive results in your own life. So, I can understand the need for a commitment and understand why it benefits all involved for us to be committed. I personally don't see how learning coping skills or a deeper understanding of our manias and depression could hurt anyone.....
  13. I'm exactly as you are describing! I have a set routine which revolves around having my son the first half of the week, then I don't have him Fri-Sun. Even though it's not that stressful when he's around, and I look forward to him being here because it gives me the routine of taking him to school and picking him up, feeding him and putting him to bed, I then NEED those alone days to decompress. Anything different that gets thrown into the mix increases my stress level and thus my symptoms. Last Sunday I had his birthday party at my house, then Monday and Tuesday we worked long hours on his science fair project, then Thursday I had a new Pdoc appt then a bipolar group in the evening, then yesterday went to a potluck for this group I've gotten involved with (I'm really trying to get out and be more social). So for me this was a BUSY week, and damn, I don't even work! And yes, I look at my mom whom is 70, still works, takes her dogs to the dog park every day, and is involved in so many activities, and I feel like a lazy bum. But I just know from experience that if I don't take advantage of all the down days alone at home that I can possibly take, it will wreak havoc on my moods. So yes, I know where you are coming from! I have to say, I've never heard the term "throws a spanner in the works". I can guess what it means, just never heard it
  14. I emailed them asking if people can still get in because I have a friend who wanted to do it and also a bipolar group I could announce it to, and he said that they will be starting another wave with a more streamlined entry process in December. So for people who were right at the end of signing up when they started, or maybe even people who missed the first week, maybe you'll still have a chance to get in. Plus I think they have to expect that there will be hiccups the first week while people figure this whole thing out....
  15. I'm glad Gearhead had links to support these findings as I was going to say something similar but didn't have any links to support it. I have a friend who has had bad stomach issues, and one of her Dr.s said that somehow serotonin is connected to the stomach and stomach issues, and she took SSRI's specifically for her stomach, and it seemed to help. She also was depressed.
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