Jump to content


  • Content Count

  • Joined

  • Last visited

About deeschmee

  • Rank

Contact Methods

  • Yahoo

Profile Information

  • Gender
  • Location

Recent Profile Visitors

4,959 profile views
  1. And I feel like I'm existing within myself. I feel like I'm just coming out of a drug induced coma. I know I have dissociative disorder but how do i know if I have separate identities? I can see my different personalities clearly. Comes in emotional waves. I'm not sure where the "me" I'm used to has been these past few weeks. Forgive me I know I've asked this before. I just can't remember the answer
  2. I could I've tried. Just seems like food takes priority over bills
  3. This makes the most sense to me. I appreciate everyone's input though. He just prescribed mirtzapine which I feel better about. I think the loneliness triggers my depression for sure.... I just want to say how grateful I am for each and every one of you. Your my people 💓
  4. He doesn't but I will tell him. It only happened once but it's bad He said it was my choice to take it. But I have to tell him about the drinking too I'm worried about sex compulsion, permanent tardive dyskinesia and suicide. There's some lawsuits with all this too
  5. I'm going to take all of this into serious consideration. You all have been so helpful.
  6. That is very helpful information. I appreciate it. My thought is that I've been trying medications for over 13 years. My pdoc did say my depression is somewhat treatment resistant so we talked about ECT and ketamine therapy. He let me decide about abilify. Also, I just realized I had 5 days off in a row and I got blackout drunk day one which triggered me too
  7. I'm scared of all the side effects of abilify. I took it last night and got a stomach ache. I've been on a variety of SSRI s tricyclic, sleep meds, clonazepam and seroquel. I know my major problem is loneliness. That makes me feel like shit.
  8. I agreed to take Abilify today. Half a tablet then moving up to a whole tablet I think 5 mg. I've read about all these crazy side effects and I really don't want to take it. I think my real problem is that Im lonley. I'm severely isolated but I feel much better when I'm dating someone or hanging out with someone. My Dad recently died and I had no one to talk it over with except my therapist. I feel my best when I have a friend or a boyfriend.. I really don't need this medicine
  9. So I'm struggling really bad paying for things like I'm supposed to not that I even have enough money to pay for anything but is there a way someone could be appointed my financial adviser or whatever I don't even know what to ask for. Someone who is in charge of my finances who can make sure that shitt gets paid on time
  10. Anyone watch this on Hulu? It's really good
  11. My brain is broken

    I think I've literally lost my shit..,

    I don't know who I am but im trying to keep it together at work

    1. coraline


      Try to hold on the best you can..

      I understand feeling like you are losing yourself..

      But try to stay grounded..

      Sending you strength and support..

    2. deeschmee


      Thank you

      It's annoying

      Not too scary

      I'm just fed up

  12. The spaghetti with carburetor a side of dip sticks and a nice class of tachometer was delicious!!! Seriously though thanks for the advice. I'm pretty sure I'm going to replace the tranny
  13. Oh, so very sorry. I can only imagine your feelings. As everyone said, please be gentle with yourself. Reach out here whenever you need to. ❤
  14. I think I'll try a forum, good suggestion. My guy said it's totally up to me. This post turned out better than I thought.
  15. Well damn if I'm not proud to be a Toyota owner now! Shit got me teared up a lil... Oh yea. I also peed myself laughing. Thanks 🤓
  • Create New...