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Well, I appear to have brought up a few topics which may wend themselves into the discussion as we go along... because the more research I do, the more I realize just how many comorbidities there are and just how truly connected our minds and bodies are as well. Let me first introduce myself- I am a 32 year old woman in relatively good health, although I probably take far more medications than I rightly should. And this begs the question: Which of the meds were needed because I was sick, and which ones were needed to control my diseases of addiction and the symptoms of bulimia? I have one doctor convinced I have chrohn's, another that thinks I have Ankylosing Spondylitis, and yet another which just hit the nail on the head: I think you take too many medications and they are interacting with one another. I take one to fall asleep, one to wake up, one to keep my appetite down, one to make pain (real or imaginary) go away, and one to manage the symptoms of my incessant purging of food which has taken a violent toll on my body. Overall, I have drugs to manage my drugs. I must state the caveat, however, that some of these drugs I actually do need. I need the antidepressant. I need the mood stabilizer, I need the anti-anxiety meds. But some, if not most, are being taken away this week as I venture to California on a journey of self-healing at an eating disorder clinic. The only requirement was that I be off of all addictive substances before my arrival... which may be an issue. The narcotics are a cakewalk- I take suboxone and I don't get withdrawal symptoms. The Vyvanse? Meh- i may be able to sneak by this "ADD med" that shows up as meth on a urine test simply for aesthetic and physiological reasons, i.e. appetite control and metabolism boost. Plus, i'll hope to keep my Topomax for migraines, as it will help me lose up to 40 pounds. But the point of this thread, ladies and gentlemen, is not how I am going to try to sneak naughty drugs into the program. The point is that I am scared witless that I will be the fattest person to show up at this eating disorder clinic. I am currently 5 foot 7 inches tall and weigh about 200 pounds. My heaviest was 208, and my lowest was 145 (Due to cancer). At 145 I was pretty happy- I could fit into a size six, and life was good. Matter of fact, I fit into some sixes just this last February- just before I was diagnosed with Chron's disease and they removed my lap band. D'oh! I thought I had a permanent fix! But just because I got that band didn't mean that I didn't have trouble from day one... intense pain, bloating, food getting stuck, you name it. I even had the band twist on me twice. So they removed it- and here I am, about 55 pounds heavier and pissed off as hell that I have to be the "fat girl" at camp. Does anyone have experience with these live in programs? If so, what are they like? Thanks so much for any reply.