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This has become the central topic of my latest ruminations...I'm still in my 40's, but I'm worrying a lot about getting older. I'm having some random health issues (aches/pains, chronic fatigue etc) that I never had before. I don't have any children and get triggered every time I see photos of other people's kids (literally everyone I know my age has kids now). I know that it's not a given that all families are happy or one's kids will take care of you in old age, but it's just the thought of having a family around! My parents are approaching late 70's and they live very far away, cannot travel. I have no other close family (or even close friends) that I can really depend on. Anyone know how to remedy these anxious thoughts? One of my biggest fears is being alone in old age, with increased health issues, and being totally isolated/alone in despair. I'd rather die young.
Right now it feels like the universe is conspiring to keep me stuck in my not so fun 20's. With poorer health of course. I was on state disability and SSI in my mid 20's. Now in my late 40's I am drawing SSDI. It's hard to believe that I once broke 20K much less 30K a year once upon a time. This time around life is a little plusher, a little easier but the outline remains the same. A subsidized downtown studio apartment -- which yes I am thankful to have. A calendar on the wall marking down the days to the next monthly payment. The periodic outings to the doctors and the food bank via bus. In my 20's there was some novelty to it all. I pictured myself as some type of dissident then. Now there is no novelty. It's deja vu all over again. What's worse is that all my ideas of how to escape it or at least meliorate it are all achingly familiar. Been there, done it. And the desire to escape it too is also achingly familiar. Not asking for solutions here. The job outlook for 45+ men with a ever expanding holes in their resumes isn't likely to get better soon. But if anyone is sharing this experience it would be good to know.