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Hi Everone, I just want to experience my Mdma experience with everyone so that I can get some help. so this all happened to days back , me and my BF had gone to one place for vacation and on the last day we decided to try mdma cuz he had already tried it once before and he told me it was amazing and he loved it. We scored at night and had mdma and left for the party with a guy friend who we met just one day before cuz his house was ryt next to ours. Wen we reached the party place it was all good we felt very energetic we were sweating nd feeling chills but it was nice we were dancing like crazy. Then after d party was over we went to that friends friends house which was next to ours.. And there also we danced for sometime nd then we decided to leave for our room . On d way i threw away a used paper napkin from my pocket and then he suddenly stopped nd suddenly started searching in the ground nd he told me that he just saw me throwing away drugs from my pocket. After that he was continuously hallucinating that somewas watching us nd he started looking for that person . I tried consoling him that whatever he was thinking wasn't real but he dint seem to listen at all. He kept doing this for next 7-8 hours searching for an imaginary person and looking for the drugs that i hid from him. i felt so helpless cuz he was acting like a retard in d middle of the road for hours.i had no idea about these things cuz i tried mdna for the first time and i was all fine. Alsohe accused me of havind sex with the friend we went to party with also the imaginary man whereas I was in front of his eyes and nothing of that sort had happened. Later on he took me to our room he locked it and started asking questions about me cheating on him with two guys and then he started beating me up real bad. Trust me ..i hav been with him for four years and I have never seen a face like that. It was d he had no love for me . He kept hitting me for 1 hour till i bled. i still think of his face that tym i get scared to death .it was like a nightmare . We have never had trust issues or violence issues in four years.i still cant blv a single drug can do this. He felt bad of hitting me the next day but even after 2 days he feels watever he hallucinated was true. I just want to know if he is always gonna have this doubt of me cheating or he will realize it that he was hallucinatin n nothing was real. Shud he need to go to the doctor. pls is there anyone who can help me. I love my bf a lot and he is suffering by blving something that's not even true.can anyone answer my questions nd give me advice

Some people telling me im paranoid and my pdoc telling me im paranoid psychotic. I dont belive in them. Bechause im not hallucinating. But at this time it feels like im having a very bad life feelings. I almost can not relax and i have the need of talking with the people who care for me. (I live in a special need-home) all day long. I just want to do something but i also do not want to do a thing. I dosent like to be in crowds anymore. I getting often very sad and angry for almost nothing. I have now been without abilify for 3 1/2 weeks and of zoloft in 2 weeks, bechause of bad high cholesterol from the abilify and zoloft. One question: My pdoc told me that there is 2 phases when i stop taking abilify. 1 phase is widtrawal effects that comes after ca 2 days. And the 2 phase is after 4-6 weeks, when i can be psychotic and axiety and more. Is this true?