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met with psychiatrist last friday and was asked when/how i take/manage/remember to take my meds and when I mentioned I took my Vraylar in the morning she expressed concern and asked why I took it in the AM. I simply told her it doesn't sedate me at all and I struggle to keep up with multiple dosages per day and remembering to take meds in the evening. She suggested that even though I don't feel sedated or tired from taking Vraylar in the morning, in addition to 40mg Valium and 0.5mg Xanax, switching to dosing at bedtime (the Vraylar plus Valium) may decrease my need to use a sleeping aid. I can never win with antipsychotics and sleep. An atypical antipsychotic either knocks me out (seroquel, zyprexa) and leaves me super sedated next day and cognitively impaired, as well as "stable-blah or fails to produce activation or sedation (rexulti, vraylar, latuda). This puts me in a predicament because I have severe insomnia that must be treated or else I spiral out of control and become dysfunctional very rapidly. Since Vraylar doesn't help me fall asleep, I alternate between using small dose, 50mg, of seroquel and halcion 0.25mg. Here's the problem: I don't feel at ease or comfortable taking to antipsychotics at the same time (Vraylar + Seroquel), but it works. Even my psychiatrist expresses a lot of concern about me taking two antipsychotics. We have explored other options, trust me almost of of them (sonata, ambien, edluar, mirtazapine, saphris, lunesta, temazepam, valium, xanax, clonidine, intermezzo, you name it, i've tried it except for belsomra), and after failing therapeutic response to several rounds of hypnotic sleeping medications I begged for halcion because I had been dying to do well on a sleep medication with a short half-life, quick onset of action, and little next day sedation. My doctor wrote my a script of 20 tablets for 45-60 days, but recently discussed "doing something about the triazolam (halcion)," meaning getting rid of it in the near future but it's the only thing that works for me! I w I feel so anxious because I am 3 weeks from coming off xanax completely, or decreasing to 0.25mg for 2 weeks after that then being off. Then the plan is to remove the remaining benzos (diazepam, triazolam) because I had a history of using xanax in the wrong ways in my past, so my doctor wants me off any benzodiazepine. I am really concerned that she will eventually stop prescribing halcion to me and I fear this because this is the only med I can rely on to get a good nights' rest if I have an important even the next day where I can't afford drowsiness. I use halcion to put me to sleep when I have something important to do the next day or if it's too late at night to take something longer acting like seroquel. My health insurance keeps pushing her to change medications since halcion is indicated for short term relief, but so is ambien, lunesta, and sonata. What's the difference I told her, halcion is the only thing that legititmately helps me fall asleep fast, doesn't leave a hangover, feels more natural than other sleep aids like ambien (where I feel disoriented, wobbly, etc.). I was absolutely grateful when my physician wrote me for halcion and was even happier after trying it out. i am not looking to take it every night by any means, I just want to have a continuous prescription so I can have something to rely on when I cannot afford having a poor night's' sleep or when i find myself spending hours trying but failing to fall asleep. Anyone else have experiences with being prescribed halcion on a continuous basis? I frankly don't see the problem in my prescription of 20 halcion every 45-60 days, it's not like I am taking it nightly (then I would see and understand where my doctor and health insurance company are coming from) but for strictly PRN use. I think taking halcion out of my medication regimen will only lead to the journey of finding another sleep medication that works, which we all know take weeks to months. Why change something if it's working and not being misused or abused? Any opinions, stories, or experiences with you guys? Feel free to talk about other "short-term" sleep medications and your experience.

I have been taking 1-2 Klonopins a day for a few years and prior to that more Ativan prn than Klonopin. Recently it seems all I have needed was 1 mg a day of Klonopin. I have also been wanting something shorter acting for prn use. So I proposed to my pdoc that we change my benzo script to 1 Klonopin every day and 1 Ativan as needed. So I get 90, 1 mg Klonopins and 60, 1 mg Ativans in a 90 day period.(I get 90 day fills on all meds except Schedule I I) Pdoc seemed to like this. It seems to be working fine.

Has anyone done this successfully? How did you deal with your anxiety--social, GAD--without your benzodiazepine? I've been taking it as prescribed since 2003. I am addicted.

Is this true? My counsellor says I need to get away from these meds. What better things are there for me to take?

I tapered of ativan because I felt like it was making me like the energizer bunny. I would start reading a book, 15 min later do dishes, 20 min later go on a run, 10 minutes into the run get tired of it, go inside watch a tv show for 10 min, then do something else. I couldn't focus on one damn thing at a time. Well I refilled the prescription and I felt great yesterday and the day before but now I actually feel more anxious. Not exactly anxiety per se, but almost like an agitation that makes me on edge, makes me worry more. I function better. Showering, cleaning, not daydreaming all day or dissociating. But I just hate the rotten feeling of agitation and not being able to relax. Would a longer acting benzo help? Such as klonipin. This was the same thing I experienced on xanax except no agitation but more energizer bunny and 15 incremental sessions all day. But this time I keep worrying, I can't be patient, little things annoy me. I'm getting frustrated even thinking about thinking about it.

So I have been on xanax 1mg two to three times daily for about 1-1.5 years now; Paxil is great and I don't need xanax when on paxil but it makes me manic as hell so that isn't really an option. Been thinking whether Zoloft would be any different.... Anyway, still on xanax same dosage, but just doubled my valium from 10mg at night to 20mg at night because I was waking up from sleep with difficulty breathing and panic symptoms. I asked to try ativan, eliminate the antipsychotic i use for sleep mainly since ativan 2mg really helps with insomnia, and get rid of the valium. Well she said lets try increasing the valium first then we will go from there. Valium honestly does nothing for me. At 10mg I legit feel nothing. It takes at least 40-60mg for minimal anxiety relief. I respect its long half-life but if it's not benefiting much for sleep, or other anxiety problems in the morning I feel like why should I continue it. Switching to ativan 2mg at bedtime could get me off valium and saphris for sleep (would love to not be on an antipsychotic mainly for sleep anyway). Ativan very little to no next day drowsiness, cognitive impairment, lethargy, flat mood. Refreshing sleep is what ativan gives me. Any ideas why the dr might be pushing for valium instead even after I explained it doesn't help for sleep, for anxiety, only thing it is good for is if i dont take my xanax for 1-2 weeks and I wont have a seizure, but my neurologist said lamital should cover that since it's an anticonvulsant. I don't know whether to stay on 2 benzos as the same time, whether it's xanax and valium or xanax and ativan, or to ask for an increase in xanax to maybe 5-6mg/day in divided doses, maybe 2mg twice per day and 1mg once per day, or 2mg 3x a day. My neurologist said if you need to be on these types of medications than it is warranted and pretty much OK in my case. Klonopin sucks, not as much as valium, but it does barely anything for anxiety, esp. panic, or sleep. Makes me have a depressed mood actually, while xanax uplifts my mood and helps me enjoy life without having anxious mood and panic attack symptoms. Ativan just makes me drowsy so I prefer that for sleep. My main question is regarding how i could proceed. Adding ativan, stopping valium maybe saphris, or upping xanax dose and being on only one benzodiazepine. I do have a tolerance so higher doses than 1mg sometimes are needed to stop anticipatory anxiety, avoidance anxiety, and esp. panic attacks. Restoril doesn't help with sleep surprisingly. Never tried triazolam but would love to due to its short half-life and potency/efficacy for insomnia, but my dr thinks it wouldn't be a good idea. Dr says stims may be increasing my anxiety but don't think that is the case. Really want an effective benzo combo or pick to be on xanax only, just at a higher dose. My parents think its crazy to take 3 xanax a day but it's what helps and lets me live life. Somtimes i take more than prescribed because 1mg will not help my symptoms. I just want to be on a stable dose, whether its xanax 3mg xr 1x daily with 1mg 3x daily or 2mg 3x daily. Something has got to give, and the hardest part is even bringing up increasing my xanax dose with my dr because of its bad reputation since everyone seems to abuse it nowadays. I'm ready to take a trip to mexico and take a visit to their pharmacies...

So I was getting #90 1mg xanax a month since October 2017, but then my doctor found out I wasn't taking them as prescribed. I would get my script filled and take 2-6mg at a time instead of 1mg only 3x a day. Some nights when I might take upwards of 10-12mg and combine with alcohol (I know very dangerous). I would black out of course, broke my macbook just a month ago and don't remember how the damage happened at all. One month I got duplicate scripts by accident and filled 1 through my medicaid and the other script through my private insurance so I got #60 and then #90 from another pharmacy. I went through the whole #150 in 2-3 weeks. I have had 2 seizures before due to running out of xanax early and have since been put on valium to stop a withdrawal seizure from occuring if I "decide to stop taking my xanax for a week or 2", aka run out before I am allowed to legally refill. Well my doctor now is set on getting me off xanax because I made a fool of myself in mid-late October 2017 at my health center, where my psychiatrist is, by taking like 18mg or more of xanax all because I admitted myself cause I felt very uncoordinated and ataxic and was going to have an IV put in my arm. I have such a hard time with needles, but why I thought taking 18mg xanax would be ok is beyond me. I ended up not being able to walk or serve myself food and made the staff stay 2 hours past closing and was wheelchaired to my car because of how incapacitated I was. I don't remember anything 5 minutes past taking a large handful of xanax. So after this is when my dr got concerned about my xanax usage and suggested we start trying to taper off it completely. You can guess that I am not too thrilled about that... Anyway, I ran out of xanax a little before christmas and didnt refill my valium until yesterday. This short break did something for my benzo tolerance because after I took 10mg valium yesterday I definitely felt an uplift in my mood, I was happier, more talkative, energetic, interest, and socially engaging, less annoyed and irritable, a decrease in apathy. 10mg would usually do nothing to me, my mood, etc. Could these effects be alleviation of benzo withdrawal symptoms since 2/23, when I took my last benzo dose, or did my tolerance really go down this much just after 1-2 weeks of not taking xanax? I always thought benzo tolerance took a good while to go down. Anyone experience tolerance reduction after only 2 weeks abstinence? I don't know what is going on, would love anybody's personal experience or knowledge about benzo misuse, tolerance, and the withdrawal symptoms; besides seizures I honestly don't know any of the other symptoms of benzo withdrawal

Hi there everyone. This seems to be the most realistic of the sites I've found, and doesn't seem to entirely be filled with people with truly crazy or insurmountable problems. So, here is mine. I've long hated psychiatrists, and like may, have resorted to all kinds of self medication in order to get through life. Life started to get very difficult for me about 2 years ago, and I ended up ordering a boatload of valium off the dark web. Yes, in hindsight, I should have gone to see a doctor back then, but I did not. Despite how it sounds, I kept to a pretty standard dose of valium - 10mg per night. It worked amazingly. Really well. Maybe too well. Fast forward to about 1 year ago. I decided i did not want to be a drug user for life, and began a slow taper. My last dose of valium was February. My work requires a high level of attention to detail, financial calculations, technical writing, etc. I ended up getting fired. This freaked me out of course, so I went to see a head doc in May after I started at my new job. I put a fair amount of thought into my life, and I've long had a good amount of anxiety, occasional outbursts of rage that have had major problems, and reckless sex. I was thinking I was bipolar, and the doc agreed. Whatever. He gave me Klonopin at 0.5mg per day for a month along with 50mg of seroquel per night. Thereafter, it's just been seroquel. The first month was ok, but life without the benzos has been a roller coaster. Seroquel does REALLY calm me down. I am not impulsive at all. But I have barely any desire to socialize or chase women or party or anything. So in this sense, the drug is working. I don't know if I am making GOOD decisions while on the stuff, but I am not making any bad decisions. Now, here is the problem. My cognitive ability and drive is not good. Really bad. I don't feel like doing anything, and when I do - it is an enormous struggle. Even when I type this, I constantly mispel words, etc. I have a hard time thinking of words when I speak, to the point people have asked me if anything is wrong. This alone is causing me a huge amount of anxiety. Weight has been an issue. I had a big wedding to go to for one of my best friends, and I didn't take seroquel all of August so I could run and lose the weight to fit into my tux. No matter whether I am on or off, I am beginning to feel like I'm losing my mind. At this wedding, I was nowhere near as social nor articulate, despite the fact I had been off the seroquel for a few weeks. I'm not sure what to do at this point. It is really hard to find good information on this kind of stuff on the internet. Most forums seem to have people who either don't work, or are not in technically demanding finance jobs. Is it the seroquel? Residual anxiety from benzo withdrawal? Should I ask to switch to something like lithium and gabapentin? Do I just say fuck it and ask for Klonopin or whatever? Honestly, I'd rather be a lifelong benzo addict that a fat, blubbering fool on Seroquel. I would be very interested in hearing from anyone who has had cognitive difficulties with seroquel. Thanks!

Hey y'all, I used to be Crazy Jack here. (I think?) I forgot my password and have switched ISP's so I return to the forum as CrazyTown. For years now (about 6, I think) I've been on Lexapro and Clonazepam for General Anxiety Disorder, Depression, and PTSD. I was up to 30 Mg of Lexxy (name brand) but throttled back to 20 Mg a few months back. I can take up to 4 Mg of Clonazepam per day via PDOC instructions. I see him every 3 months for follow up. Life has been better since I've been on and adjusted to the meds. Then, out of no where, disaster strikes, real close to home. It put me into a a high state of anxiety, but the depression was okay. And, just as this sh*t is going down, Wal Mart switched the generic Clonazepam from Brand T to Brand A. I had been getting along great with 2 Mg per day of Brand T for months. Sleeping good, mood good, overall no complaints. Then Brand A shows up in my refill and it's completely non effective. No BS, it feels like it's 80% less potent than Brand T. So, I have my appointment with PDOC, and he writes me up for Brand name Klonopin. It shows up today, and now I am worried that when I take it tonight, it's going to be so potent, it may knock me on my butt. So I come back to ask for any opinions from those who have been on both the name brand and the generic. Is there a big difference? I know the law states very clearly what these Generics are supposed to contain as far as the actual medicine part of the drug. That said, I don't buy for a single second that these Generic companies are following the rules. Just with Clonazepam, I've found that Brand T is reliable all the time. Brand M, is nowhere near the strength of Brand T. And now, Brand A is even less potent than Brand M. The PDOC says the typical nonsense, no they're all the same. LOL, is he serious? Not a chance, I've been on this stuff long enough to know when it's working and when it's not. The only time it's failed to work is when I was off of Brand T. Any thoughts on the real Klonopin as far as how potent it is compared to the generics would be mucho appreciated my friends. Thanks from CrazyTown

i've been on clonazepam for 2.5 weeks. if i stop taking them entirely (a dose of .5-2 per day), will i go through with physical withdrawal or is it too soon?* *i know no one's a medical professional, etc.

I started Klonopin about six weeks ago after attempting to live life off benzos for quite some time and ending up in the hospital several times for panic attacks. At first, Klonopin seemed to balance me quite nicely, but as time goes on it seems like the effects are getting stronger depending on the day and dose timing, and after a few days of consistent dosing I start I feel really out of it, like I took twice the dose I did. Has anyone experienced this? Could this be an interaction with anything I'm taking? (See signature)

I recently started seeing a new P doc-- guy immediately takes me off 50 mg of Seroquel after my complains about weight gain and lethargy and puts me on up to 3 mg of Ativan to take at night. Not a little bit of Ativan here and there for anxiety-- like what I assume most people take, but one big dose to take at night only for sleep. I have terrible insomnia. Is that safe to take 2 mg at once at night? So far I have been taking 2 mg nightly ( every night) for sleep. Been sleeping okay. He also started me on 5 mg Abilify because to be safe, my treatment team agrees I need to be on anti-psychotic. The 5 mg is making my daytime anxiety worse ( I take it in the morning) so far it is helping my depression though as an add on to the 40 mg of Prozac I am taking. Is it common practice to give Ativan ( or any other benzo) for sleep only? Is it safe to be taking 2 mg at one time? Will I get addicted to it if I take it every night? thanks in advance

I hope this is the right place to post this... As you can see from my signature, I have multiple dx and have tried several different rx over the years. The problem I've run into is that my depression causes me to be extremely lethargic and fatigued, no matter how much rest I get...but I also have anxiety and panic attacks. Most antidepressants that work for anxiety tend to be pretty sedating. This does not work for me; I'm tired enough already. I've also had problems with SSRIs in general. I've been taking Wellbutrin for a few months now; my dosage was increased about 6 weeks ago. I haven't had any negative side effects. I've heard the concerns about Wellbutrin making anxiety worse. I haven't experienced that. I feel like my mood has improved but not enough. I'm still tired all the time; I still can't focus, have no motivation. I look at my sink full of dirty dishes and it bothers me but it doesn't bother me enough to load the dishwasher. I look at the piles of dirty laundry on my floor and it bothers me but the thought of going out in public bothers me a lot more. I still get overly emotional and cry at inappropriate times. I have a rx for Klonopin that reads "take 1 tablet twice a day and 1 extra as needed." I do not take it every day. I've always looked at benzos as something that's only PRN, so I only take it when I know I'm going into a triggering situation or if I feel a panic attack coming on. Am I wrong? Should I be taking 2 tablets daily, regardless of how I think I feel? If I do this, will it make me tired and basically defeat the purpose of taking a med like Wellbutrin in the first place? I feel like the only days that I feel "normal" and can think clearly are when I have caffeine, which I'm not even supposed to drink. Yeah, it helps with my depressed feelings but it aggravates my anxiety as well as some GI problems I'm also dealing with. So not worth the physical repercussions. I just don't know what to do. I have an appointment with my pdoc next week. I don't want to consider coming off the Wellbutrin; it's the only AD I've taken that doesn't make me feel like a zombie and/or give me terrible side effects. I'm not at 100% but at least I'm noticing a little improvement...should I ask him to increase my dosage again? We've already tried to augment with Lexapro and that didn't work. Any other SSRI is off the table for me, as are most SNRIs. Has anyone had success augmenting Wellbutrin with an ADD med like Ritalin or Strattera? Is this even a reasonable topic to discuss with my doctor? It just seems like any drug that might help with my depression will make my anxiety worse and vice versa. I feel like I can't win ...I hope there's someone here who can point me in the right direction.

I need info quickly/urgently about Xanax (and to a lesser extent Klonopin) and how much I should take to be effective at combating severe anxiety without putting me into a coma or anything...I have SERIOUS obligations both tonight, tomorrow and the next day and my extreme anxiety is currently preventing me from meeting those obligations. I was just prescribed Xanax today and I'm trying to figure out how much to take, but before I go on I think it's very important to know my history with benzodiazepines...I know it's long (sorry), but I believe it definitely plays a role here: SITUATION/SUMMARY: Was prescribed Klonopin (1MG) about 4 years ago in 2010 to take *as needed* for anxiety - took it sparingly for the first 3.5 years, only when I really needed it (once or twice a month) and 1MG was enough to eliminate the anxiety every time. I once tried 3MG back then and it made me black out. Latter half of 2013 I began to take it more frequently as my anxiety was becoming slightly more severe but still only maybe once or twice a week - I actually made a Word document with a log every time I took it, how much, and how it impacted my anxiety so I know exactly how much I took. I was still taking the same dosage (1mg or 1.5mg), but maybe 3-5 times a month - this continued up until February of this year. Then comes 2014, particularly February onward, and my anxiety spikes WAY higher than ever before; my depression gets much worse as well but that's not what I'm posting about. There were no med changes, no events, nothing I know of that precipitated this...just all of a sudden, my mental/emotional health became much worse. So, with increased stress and anxiety I began taking the Klonopin more frequently. I would always purposely not eat so that I'd take it on an empty stomach so it would be more effective...and many times I wouldn't eat anything for the rest of the day in fear of food diminishing the anxiolytic effects of the Klonopin. I increased the frequency to maybe 3 times a week at first. I noticed that the 1 or 1.5mg doses weren't working against my MUCH elevated anxiety so I upped the dose to 2mg or 2.5mg. Then when even that didn't work, out of desperation I tried mixing it with alcohol...mostly hard liquor, shots of vodka etc. I am still a lightweight when it comes to alcohol and when alcohol was involved it usually did not end well and only occasionally improved things/alleviated my anxiety...maybe 15% success rate. I didn't drink with it EVERY time, but from this point on maybe like 1/3rd of the time I took Klonopin for anxiety alcohol would be involved by the end of the night. LATE FEB-MID MARCH 2014: So then at the end of February/the beginning of last month, March, my mental/emotional state deteriorated further...I stopped bothering with logs for the most part. From late February to mid March I took the Klonopin with about the same frequency, maybe 3 or 4 days a week, and took 3MG every time which was sometimes effective, sometimes not. In mid March I took 4MG, my max ever dose, and after hours with not nearly enough anxiety relief I added in alcohol to the mix and of course blacked out. It's probably worth mentioning that I live totally alone and any time I've drank anything with the Klonopin in my system (and as mentioned above, nothing else, almost always on an empty stomach) I have been alone at home. I should also mention at this point that I am a 26 year old male, 5 foot 7 and weigh 123 pounds. PAST MONTH (mid/late March to now, April 16th) After the 4mg dose with the booze and no relief I knew it was time to see a doctor about the meds (and had actually been trying for months) but my doctor had no availability until the beginning of May and every other pdoc wasn't accepting new patients or didn't take my insurance. Started taking some higher doses like 5.5MG or 6MG, although not all at once...spaced out throughout the day when I kept having anxiety so I added more. I kept brief logs of this. 4MG was what I usually took at this point, although I think I cut back on the frequency a bit (twice a week or so). Sometimes it would help, sometimes it wouldn't. When it wouldn't I would add booze to the mix, rarely with positive results. Last day of March I started out with 5MG all at once since I knew I had a majorly anxiety-provoking and stressful day ahead of me...5MG wasn't enough so I took another 1MG a few hours later, then that still wasn't enough so 2 hours later I took another 1MG, then 3 hours later the anxiety still hadn't subsided so I took another 1MG, bringing me to my grand total of 8MG Klonopin for the day...and then added booze into the mix. According to what I wrote in my diary, it was only at this point that my anxiety finally reached a manageable level. My diary is missing entries from a lot of days since March 30th, 2014 but I know I upped the frequency of the Klonopin again and 5MG was my new minimum and usually did not work. I have an entry dated 4/13/2014 (3 days ago) saying "UGH it has been 3 hours since I took 7mg kpin all at once and everything is practically the same, anxiety just as bad. 7mg kpin on no food and NOTHING in terms of anxiety relief." (END OF SITUATION/SUMMARY) So basically that's where I'm at now. First of all, I learned my lesson and have cut alcohol out of my life entirely. But 7MG of Klonopin taken all at once doesn't do anything for me and I still need immediate anxiety relief for extreme situations, and badly. I have real-world obligations, serious ones, and my anxiety is severe enough to prevent me from doing them no matter how important I know they are. I finally saw a doctor today, told her the Klonopin had stopped working for my anxiety even at high doses, and she prescribed me 0.5mg Xanax instead. I have never taken Xanax before today. I took the first 0.5mg Xanax 2 hrs and 40 minutes ago, felt no different after an hour and a half, and took another 0.5mg Xanax 1 hour and 10 minutes ago...and still feel zero anxiety relief. Questions: Xanax is not Klonopin, but they're similar. Does the fact that 7MG of Klonopin has zero effect on my anxiety mean that the Xanax will be equally ineffective? Is the same dose of Xanax equivalent in potency/efficacy to the same dose of Klonopin, keeping in mind I've never taken Xanax before? Can I mix the two together? I feel like 0.5mg is *way* too low of a dose and am more convinced of that now that 1mg has proven to do nothing but then again I don't know that much about Xanax. Can I safely take, for instance, 4mg of Xanax without major repercussions (keeping in mind my tolerance to Klonopin and the severity of my anxiety)? Or 2mg Klonopin and 3mg Xanax or something like that? How likely is it, given this info, that I am essentially screwed in terms of any benzos ever working for me again? Like I said, I have HUGELY important obligations to meet both tonight, tomorrow and the next day and my anxiety is currently ruining tonight's and I can't afford to let my anxiety ruin the others as well...so any advice would be GREATLY appreciated. Sorry for the length, but I felt including all the details was important and hopefully some kind soul will see this and be able to offer some help or information. Thank you for your time. P.S. I have been prescribed and tried almost every other medication under the sun over the last 14 years, seen 20+ different doctors for my anxiety in that time span, and absolutely none of the meds have gotten rid of my anxiety except for the Klonopin...which is now ineffective. SSRIs, SNRIs, Tricyclics, Stimulants, Anti-Psychotics and several other classes of medication I'm forgetting. Non-med routes as well...15+ different therapists, CBT, exposure therapy, aromatherapy, meditation, almost everything. Nothing else works, which is why I'm so desperate.

I have been using Xanax ( one quarter of a 0.5 mg tablet every night for about six months. I had been having some autonomic dysfunction issues and the Xanax helped immensely with the heart palpitations. I went to see a sleep specialist and he wanted to try me on Klonopin since I had taken it years ago and seemed to remember having no problems with it. But what an unpleasant surprise to find that I was having trouble breathing while falling asleep, and to wake with extreme irritability which quickly turned into a non stop crying jag. Has anyone else ever experienced symptoms of excessive crying, irritability and being short of breath while on Klonopin?

Hi everyone, After my second hospitalization my psychiatrist added 600 mg. Quetiapine to my rx plus... some other AP (yes, I remember it was an AP and not an AAP) I don't remember the name of anymore --anyways it's not important, I took it for 4 days after my hospitalization and now (under the psychiatrists directions) am off this second AP. The thing is I've sort of become addicted to my Quetiapine night dose (400 mg.), I need it in order to sleep. If I don't take it I don't sleep, as simple as that. At the most, without Quetiapine, and after going to the gym or other heave physical activity and taking some alcohol (not much, etiher a few beers or some wine along dinner), I sleep for maybe up to 4 hours and constantly wake up, every half an hour or hour; this, obviously, doesn't leave me rested.. Yesterday (after like 48 hours of not sleeping) there was nothing that could put me to sleep, so I took my PRN med, 2 mg. Clonazepam, a few hours later 2 mg. more, and so on. I ended taking 10 mg. Clonazepam before finally sleeping for like 10 hours. I know taking that much Clonazepam is in most likelihood not goof for me, I just panicked and kinda lost count of how much I was taking, I simply kept on going. Not sleeping seriously scares me at times because it is the main signal that I'm not far from going psychotic. So, questions: - Was me taking that much Clonazepam dangerous or just reckless (I know I was waaaaay far from overdosing, I researched it a bit)? - What have you done, if in the same situation, about becoming resistant to meds that are meant to help (and are essential for) you sleep (especially Clonazepam or Quetiapine)? I also take Melatonin (have tried 3 mg. and also 0.75 mg due to a tip from someone here on CB, which I confirmed with my psychiatrist) and PLENTY of chamomile tea; it does nothing, or at least nothing noticeable. -------------------------------------- THANKS EVERYONE for your replies!!! MODERATORS: if this should better be in the psychosis forum, or drug dependency forum, or anywhere else, please excuse me and move it as you see fit.

I have been on different benzos for 7 years and I always knew where to get them. Now the person who got them for me left the country and I should find some other ways of getting them. I am searching for reliable vendor with benzos... Yesterday I received an email from medstore-online.com, they seem to have a good reputation in internet, however I have never used online pharmacies myself.. if anyone had any experience with these guys, I would be very happy to know your opinion as for their service..