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Hi I live in Fl with 3 dogs, cats and a parrot . I also have a hubs and 25 yr old daughter here , too. Right now I'm in a crazy and burn cycle. I'm anxious, semi-panicked, depressed, angry, nervousness, irate, etc. My pdr diagnosed me with PTSS , ADD, OCD, bi-polar , depression and anxiety. I'm not going to argue. After being on celexa 10, adderall, ambien with an occasional xanex for years, I was put on a heart med that changed everything. I can no longer take any of the regual anti-depressants I've taken for yrs. Although they didn't help 100%, they did mostly kept the edge off and that was enough. I could function on a semi-adult level.. I thought I could handle being off the celexa but after 2 wks I wanted to die..I started with the irrational over the top fears and everything else that goes along with stopping something like that. Dr gave me a sample pack of Viibryd, the only thing i can take with Flecanaide the heart med. It sucks ..two days and I feel like I'm carrying a sack of cement on my head and the restless legs are awful. I have an awful taste in my mouth and my lips feel weird. Oh and can that stuff be any more expensive???? I know I need meds to function, and my family will attest to that..I'm a horror to be with without them..Mean, nasty, sarcastic. (but pretty funny) constant mood changes., etc Anyway..."hey all"
I have a hard time trusting people and an even harder time sharing my feelings. I have been reading some of the stuff shared on this site and I realized maybe I don't have to deal with this alone anymore. The normal people in my life don't have clue and when I try to explain I get these blank stares like OMG, I don't want to know this. It is easier for them if they can just pretend I am normal too. They diagnosed me with bi-polar disorder about 4 months ago. I have the one with the crazy highs and the evil lows. I have been self medicating for more years than I remember until I ended up in a hospital within days of dying they say. They said I had taken too many of my happy pills and that I was starving myself to death. Apparantly the only thing I was eating was pills. I don't remember alot of the last few years and none of the three months leading up to July 5, 2012. I detoxed at home with my daughter and husband watching over me, keeping me from pills and keeping me from hurting myself. Two weeks later I was in rehab. Rehabs pdoc diagnosed me. I don't disagree with the diagnoses. It seems right on to me. Now I take Saphris, Lithium, Wellbutrin, and Lunesta. I feel everything and with much intensity. The meds keep me from getting overwhelmed by them mostly. The anger is the worse to pop out and singe those around me. My husband is done, I think. He is not speaking to me, for the last two days. That is not normal for us. But I think I might be done also. I was using prescription drugs to escape from something that was making me unhappy....But I am terrified, what if I crash again??? What is the right answer to any question??? My mind feels like hurricane is loose in it and I am never sure if what I feel is real, or what I think is going on is really going on. What if I am wrong??? My perception is so off. I don't know if I can trust myself or anyone else for that matter. Are the meds not working????
Hello, I am new here and hoping to find help if not a cure for my disability. I call it a disability because I find it extremely difficult to deal with everyday life. Unable to focus on the simplest of tasks or even interact socially with people anymore. I've tried therapy for many years but have come to the conclusion that the therapists are just there to collect my money week after week. I've also gone the medication route which I discontinued a year ago due to financial difficulties. I've been told I have depression, Bi-polar Disorder, OCD and most recently Treatment Resistant Depression. I'm sure there is more wrong with me, I'm just so forgetful I can't remember it all right now. If there is anyone here that can offer some type of direction or assistance I would be greatly appreciative.