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Hey everyone, I haven't posted here in a while because I haven't really had a topic to post about--- until today. i just found out my therapist is leaving. Well not really leaving the clinic I go to, she will still be there one day a week as a supervisor, but she will no longer be seeing clients there for therapy. I have been seeing her since I was 19 and first diagnosed as having BPD. We just recently started to do more DBT work in therapy and now she is no longer going to be my therapist in a month. I am beyond devastated and upset. I have been talking to my problems for her every week for 15 years and now I am going to have to get or find a new therapist to help me and she will no longer be in my life.I have had years of transference problems towards her, so I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand it will probably be easier to start with someone new-- granted that I don't end up having as deep of an attachment to he/she. On the other hand I had a deep attachment to her because we had a connection and she has helped me a great deal. I don't know how to say good bye. This is only the second therapist I have had in my life. Has anyone else been though termination to a long time therapist ( or any therapist they felt help them?) How do I handle it? What do I say to her in our last session?
I'm not letting my ex ruin my life anymore. I cut him loose today. He is an alcoholic and he drives me to drink, not an excuse but an extra reason to. I'm an addict and alcoholic. I even mix the two.. Not cool. So today I attended an online AA meeting and talked to a girl I met in treatment that is sober and I am going to face to face meetings this week. I also need to find a therapist this week for sure. I fell down the stairs 2 years ago and at 37 had to have a total hip replacement and jaw reconstruction after being airlifted to a trauma center. I am facially disfigured now because of it and am going to have surgery again on June 18 for total joint replacements on both sides of my jaw that will hopefully even out my facial asymmetry. As a result of the fall, I lost custody of my daughters, 10 and 7, and now they live an hour away with their dad. I also became homeless for the past two years and just recently got into my own apartment. My ex-husband is supposed to bring them once a week to see me and let me talk to them on the phone everyday but he does not comply with the court order. He doesn't know what's going on with me and I am definitely not going to tell him. Meanwhile I need to file court papers to get custody of my daughters back. That needs to be my focus.. that and my new job working at home so I can save money for a car to go see them since he won't bring them to see me. Everything is a mess because of this addiction and I'm tired of it. I'm happy to say I've hit rock bottom and have become enlightened. I refuse to live like this another day. I thank God for the clarity to see this. Thank you for reading.