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I feel like doctors don't take me seriously anymore. They ignore my long-term, not as easily explained symptoms. One is my blurry vision. I mention it to a doctor/therapist/psychiatrist and they just sort of nod and then never mention it again. Despite the fact that it's the reason I don't get a driver's license, which makes it hard to find work in the field I studied in. And another problem is that I had symptoms that mimicked DID for a few years. They vanished, over a year ago, and no one except my therapist will even address it. And my therapist has a bunch of conflicting theories, one of which is REALLY insulting. And it seems to be the one she's grabbing onto right now, even though her earlier theories made a lot more sense. My therapist had been hoping the psychiatrist would help explain the DID symptoms, but he didn't even address them. It came up, part way through the diagnostic session, but he then dropped it and never brought it up again. I just want some answers... and it almost feels like if there isn't an easy one, they just pretend the problem doesn't exist. I know it's hard to diagnose something after the fact, but they could at least be more helpful. Like, I know my therapist is trying. I know she is. But I feel like she isn't really listening to me. Like, I'll explain why a theory doesn't make sense, and she just kind of nods and then repeats the same theory next session. She could at least refute my points This is like. One of the first times I've ever disagreed with her, too. Most of the time, I take her word as the truth. But this argument just makes no sense. I wasn't going to say exactly what she said, but it's really upsetting and maybe writing it here will help. So she basically said that I was inducing the symptoms as a way to fit in with my friends, who also have mental illnesses. Which makes no sense, because some symptoms appeared before I met them. Not to mention, some of THEIR symptoms didn't become apparent to me until AFTER the DID symptoms started. They then felt comfortable enough to open up to me. Also, I was terrified and ashamed of a lot of my symptoms, worrying that I was a burden. Doesn't that completely conflict with wanting to fit in? I don't know. It just really upsets me. I feel like people in the medical field have their own ideas, and will discount all evidence to be correct. I used to have a doctor who was OBSESSED with making me gain weight, to the point of messing me up pretty bad. Another who thought I had a disorder that caused me to mishear words, but I then learned that she had written a lot of papers on that disorder and was probably just wanting me to have it so she could study me. I don't know. I just. I'm so sick of doctors not trusting me. They all think I'm a liar, or a faker, or something. I just want someone to believe me. Sorry this rant is so emotional.