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This is a long shot, but I figure I can't be the only one who has ever had this thought. Is there a way to induce a state that includes the productivity/happiness of mania - without all the extra bullshit? 😅 Mania is better than any drug, the euphoria is incomparable. Every time I skip a few days of sleep, feel an increase in energy, or anything that might be the beginning of an episode, I think - ''Please let this be the onset of the best feeling in the world. I can't do this shit anymore''. I feel so guilty admitting to that, because I know that being manic and being functional are generally not compatible. I also don't ever want to end up in hospital again, because that never fails to be a de-humanizing experience. I have not had any symptoms of mania since my last hospital admission, three whole years ago. It was the first and only manic episode that I've ever had, and it lasted for about three months. I feel like I could have avoided hospital completely if I had experienced mania without the accompanying psychosis. If I could just achieve that level of elation without: rapid speech word-salad delusional beliefs dangerously impulsive acts (e.g. jumping out of a car on the highway because the sky looked beautiful and I wanted a loser look) I look back on those ugly symptoms and I could never cope with them now. I go to college full-time, I work, and I have so much to lose if I lost the ability to communicate with others and behave safely. On the other hand - my life just feels so damn gray and stagnant; I miss feeling invincible.
Hi all. Have suffered from a broken brain all my life, pretty much: chronic low-grade depression broken up by bouts of major depression and suicidal ideation, yay. Stabilized a few years ago with the help of a great p-doc and Pristiq. Now here I am, feeling low-ish but also like the meds keep me from getting lower? if that makes sense. Like there's a basement for my moods, and I can't get lower than that. And that's good! But I have no enjoyment for my life. Zilch. I feel sort of ... anhedonic. Has anyone else experienced this, and how did you get better? I am making an appointment with my p-doc to discuss but I like to have my thoughts in order before I go. Thanks for any input you have. x monkeypuzzled