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For a better explanation, I am 15 and currently diagnosed with traits of bpd (since you can not be diagnosed with a personality disorder before you are 18) my mother doesn't like to accept I have this disorder (even though I qualify for each and every symptom, I am pretty much textbook bpd) she doesn't want me to get the help I need for specifically this disorder. She thinks I will "grow out of it" which I might but i'm not waiting/suffering that long. My therapist/psychiatrist specifically TOLD my mother which symptoms I qualify for (all of them) and what treatment I need, but she just nodded her head and agreed but later said it was bullshit, thinking that her "tough love" and herbal medications can fix it. A little backstory about my mom: she is diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 and diagnosed with mild anger issues (which cause a whole other spectrum of problems) she has never accepted her problems nor mine. Someone please HELP!
So, 2012-ish I applied for SSI. Got denied. Got a lawyer, who said I had a good case. Cut to three years later and a shit-ton of denials and my lawyer has dumped me as a client. I called Binder and Binder and had a lengthy coversation that seemed to end with the message: If your doctors won't say you are 100% unable to work at all, you're fucked. Three years wasted, punctuated by the death of hope. "So I guess now I get a full-time job and wait until something terrible happens. If I am not dead or in jail at that time, I can re-apply." - What I want to say to everybody. A lot of people have it worse off than me, but I don't live inside their heads. I honestly don't know what to do now. Even if I thought getting a job was an option, that's next to impossible in this economy. For years I ignored the people that told me I was disabled. My mother, my friends. I finally start believing them and the result is this bullshit. I am looking for advice from people who know where I am coming from, here. Right now my mind is racing, I am panicking, and the spellcheck isn't working for some reason.