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This has become the central topic of my latest ruminations...I'm still in my 40's, but I'm worrying a lot about getting older. I'm having some random health issues (aches/pains, chronic fatigue etc) that I never had before. I don't have any children and get triggered every time I see photos of other people's kids (literally everyone I know my age has kids now). I know that it's not a given that all families are happy or one's kids will take care of you in old age, but it's just the thought of having a family around! My parents are approaching late 70's and they live very far away, cannot travel. I have no other close family (or even close friends) that I can really depend on. Anyone know how to remedy these anxious thoughts? One of my biggest fears is being alone in old age, with increased health issues, and being totally isolated/alone in despair. I'd rather die young.

I'm fighting off tears at work and just took my first lorazepam ever, so I kind of need to talk, if that's okay. I'm really scared right now because I'm losing weight. For me, that's a bad thing. I spent most of my life being SEVERLY underweight. Like, regular visits to see specialists, group therapy at a children's hospital in case it was mental, guilt over eating salad levels of underweight. Looks like it was caused by genetics and a really bad case of acid reflux. It was nothing serious, but it still created so many issues that I was really worried I was going to die. Then I was put on olanzapine and put on 50 pounds in a couple of months. Finally, people stopped looking at me like I was sick. But then, they changed my diagnosis and took me off of the olanzapine. Now my clothes and engagement ring don't fit. My appetite is shrinking back to the way it was. It's just started, but I know what's coming. I'm going back to my old size. And I'm terrified. It's all I can think about. The weight loss isn't even noticeable yet! But I'm so scared. I have to keep reminding myself to breathe. I have so many more important things to be scared about, but all I can focus on is my beautiful engagement ring slipping down my finger until it almost falls off. I need to breathe. I wish I could text someone irl but they're all asleep. I'm working a night shift. I just want to go home and cry.

I have been known to fall asleep while trying to study , failed every test and have been told that I wasn't going to graduate on time with my classmates\ A friend of mine introduced me to this supplement called Nootropics (Adrafinil) it is known to stimulate your mind and increase the feeling of wakefulness and helps increase overall motivation possibly due to the positive effect. I started taking these supplements and it has helped a lot in my school work and studies and i was able to pass all my exams, and able to graduate on time with my fellow classmates.

does anyone else struggle to breath even when just sitting down laying not doing anything that uses effort because of anxiety? Im physically healthy, but my doctor seems to think the only reason for my breathing problems is anxiety I dont mean during an actual panic attack