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It is deep and dark, and you must never come there with me!" Does anyone else hide their symptoms from their partner? I excuse myself for being "busy," "tired," or "not feeling well" if I'm depressed, or just straight-up hide if I'm feeling hypomanic. I have never had a relationship survive my partner seeing me symptomatic. Thoughts? Fellow-feeling? Advice?
Alright, maybe this has already been asked (I wouldn't be surprised if it has), but where do you all self-injure/harm? Why there? Is it because of the amount of pain, or is it the ability to hide the marks? I don't know, I'm curious to hear everyone's stories. Please, tell away.
I haven't had a drink for about 10 months now and I thought I was doing great. But, a few months ago my pdoc put me on a couple of meds that cause weight gain, and he warned me that I might get cravings. No alcohol cravings, but I do have wicked ones for sweets. I have gained a bit of weight and my SO is picky about such things. He's been reacting the way he did when I was drinking: by trying to control what I do, making snide comments if he catches me eating something he doesn't think I should eat. I know he means well but (as I tried to tell him with the booze) it just makes things worse. Another trigger for me is that he hoards things, including boxes of chocolate from last Christmas that he displays but refuses to touch. Now I've begun sneaking junk food into the house, hiding it and eating it when he's not around. I didn't make the connection between the food and the booze until today. I was walking my dogs and I happened to pass a paper liquor bag on a lawn. Normally I barely notice such things, but this time I stopped in my tracks and stared at the bag, thinking "maybe there's still a bottle in there! Maybe I should check and if I find one, I can take it home since he's not there..." I stopped that train of thought (can't drink because of meds) and kept going. But I was confused as to why I'd think that way when I hadn't done that for months! Then I realized that my behaviour with the food, sneaking it in and hiding it and consuming it when SO isn't home, is exactly what I did with liquor. And, I feel just as ashamed and guilty about the behaviour with the food as I did when I was drinking. So for now my plan is to start going back to the relapse prevention therapy groups at the rehab centre, and to stock up on apples. I find that the flavour of apples satisfies my sweet craving too, and they're a lot healthier! Has anyone else had a similar problem?