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i used not to..but i do again.. why? because i hate them, they're out to get me, and I don't care. they used to tell me that i'm not good enough for university, and because i couldn't cook as a 17 year old, then i'm not good enough to go and all the other students will hate me. so then explain how many others don't, and live off junk foods?? or don't give a fuck and live off crisps?? they hate me due to not being with it, there is not even a proper description....and they get on in adult society? haha. I know they will want to section me, since they don't follow the book and get angry for doing so, but by the book i'm going to sign-up, and live off bread rolls and lettuce alone since it;s not proper cooked food, and so they can section me, since i'm so inferior and eating that is a symptom of mental illness..lolololol..
This sounds terrible, but I don't want to stop cutting. When I have had time to think reasonably, i have reevaluated the situation I'm in ( self harm) and I honestly decided, why stop? Here are my reasons: • what's the worst that an happen? A few scars, my death? Ok. • why does it matter to anyone? I don't wear shorts anymore, so no one can be offended by the cuts, and I don't talk about it like it is a good thing. • this is not a thing I keep a secret. Its not so bad I can't tell anyone. People know. My best friends dad knows. We haven't talk about it, but he saw the cuts. • my friends have done it to, but most did it for attention. I am not doing it for attention. I am doing it for a lot of reasons. Mainly family problems/self hate. I know I'm not stopping anytime soon. I'll end up killing myself if I don't, but that doesn't mean a thing to me right now. I don't care. Honestly, i dont. I guess my whole thing was, is this normal, or is it just I'm so screwed up and messed up? ~k