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This is my first time writing but I need help from someone I don’t know and doesn’t know me. I feel like giving up on life, I want to cry all the time and just everything is just suffocating me. I’m faking smiles and happiness when I’m struggling to feel any emotions. I feel so god damn empty!! But I’m not suicidal and I never think about it. I’ve never done self harm and I’ve never taken up the offer. I feel like everyone has something in there life that they can love. I don’t. I know this isn’t for everyone but I feel like it. From people having that special someone, that thing they love to do or something that makes them feel safe. For me I don’t have anything like that and I haven’t really enjoyed anything in a long time. I feel so empty. I don’t feel safe anymore and I’m scared of the dark. It makes me jumpy and gives a feeling like I’m being watched. I know it sounds stupid but I’m a teenager and I just... can’t. i haven’t talked to anyone about this and I just don’t want people swarming me about it. I feel like my life’s a mess. I feel like I don’t belong. I feel like where I am isn’t where I should be. I don’t know if I’m depressed. But I know I need help but death will never be something I consider. It scares me. If anyone else feels anything similar please talk to me or if you have any advice. I feel like I’m suffocating.