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And I'm having a hard time dealing with this. I'm bipolar 1, diagnosed about 2 years ago after I had a manic episode of obsessive thoughts about a girl I liked. I've always been a very strategic thinking type person, looking at all the possibilities in a situation to find the best outcome with the lowest risk. For the girl situation it was to minimize the possible social fallout, I however couldn't move, I was stuck in an endless loop of going through the possibilities only to come back to the same original action I was going to take. 2 years on, seeing a new psych, and she is far more into the psychological triggers that drive me. The over thinking drives horrible anxiety for me, my doctor says despite my extraordinary efforts nobody is perfect and that it is perfectly ok to make mistakes in life - take action, suppress the overwhelming urge to think through the consequences and just deal with the repercussions. In the 2 months since I spoke to her about this I have made some incredible changes to my life, I bought a car I had delayed 2 years because I couldn't find 'the right one' and I got back in contact with a girl I previously thought was out of my league. The thing with this girl is that i have already slept with her, she has done nothing to make me think she doesn't want to go out with me and has been the one to imitate things and YET all I think about is the things that could go wrong. Crazy boards, please, suggest ways a bipolar 1 person can be MORE impulsive