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Hello Everyone, I have bipolar 1 disorder and want to talk about an issue that bothers me to no end. I have been taken advantage of by people who I was either a friend with, had intimate relationships with, people have lied about my character and have gotten away with it, people have pushed themselves away from me due to several reasons and have yelled at me on several occasions. I am a strong person by nature, however I believe that the outcome of my relationships with people have been a cause of weakness due to the nature of this illness. It has ripped me alive, like so many others may agree. People can be mean and hurtful and it’s disheartening, depressing and overall unfortunate that I cannot face the world as strongly as I have been able to before. I guess I’m a little scared even despite being medicated, but I find that I still come across a person who snaps or yells or thinks they can take advantage of me in some way. Every chance I can get or every chance I can exercise courage, I damn well do but it’s rare. In spite of what I have control over, I still ruminate on all of these relationships. I find that I have very few relationships with people in general. All I really have is my family and that’s all I interact with all day and everyday. Have you ever experienced this downfall due to bipolar disorder in general and how do you overcome ruminating over these issues? And why are people so mean?
Hi everyone. I'm new here. I've just started reviewing Bio-Oil. My scars are like a dirty secret to me now. I hate them. I hate myself for cutting. I wish I never picked up that first blade. It was the biggest mistake of my life. Every day I regret them. I just want to be 'normal'. I just want to be able to wear a simple t-shirt without feeling ashamed. Thanks and please please please put down that blade - it's not worth it! By cutting yourself you are GUARANTEEING to never forget your problems. Stay strong and find another outlet for your pain <3
My mother is a dental hygenIst but has left me alone and trusts me to brush my teeth and take care of my dental hygene. I used to be good with keePing up with it but now I do it once a day... I hate cavities and cry if I get one (I've only ever had 2) but I'm now afraid I have another one and am scared to go to my mother about it in fear of disappointing her. At appointments I always claim I brush my teeth twice a day everyday but I'm just kidding myself. I hate not wanting to brush my teeth but idk if I don't do it because it's the one thing in my life that she can't control or if I'm just a stupid teenager who forgets and doesn't actually care about her body. I regret not doing it when it comes down to it but can't get the motivation to brush every night
A year and a half ago I was at a low point in my life and turned to one of the oldest professions there is. I know at the time I justified it to myself saying I had no other options, I felt I had noone to turn to for support. The money was great but I couldn't deal with all the deception in my life and had to stop. Although it was hard to explain the gap in my CV I have managed to get a job and I am trying to sort my life out. Sometimes I can banish the thoughts but I get bad mood swings and at night I can't sleep and I imagine if anyone found out what I had done. Also I dragged a friend into it with me and she became a drug addict. She has never been the same and I feel responsible for her getting into it in the first place. I so badly want to move on with my life and get to a better place. I never want to go back to using my body like that to make a living. It does feel good to write it down.