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I've suffered from obsessive thoughts since I was 16. So much so I used to go into hypotheticals. I used to "re enact" scenes between people. Trying to figure out how people act and why... It was borderline psychosis as some psychiatrists put it. The thinking as irrational. Hence my treatment with zyprexa (on and off) since about 19 until 2008. I've had chronic Depersonalization Disorder since 2008. Since then I still struggle with OCD, mood swings, Depression, dissociation etc. But I've managed fairly well. Then this rash appeared at the corners of my mouth. It's disgusting. I've taken over 400 pictures. I've seen 5 dermatologists. No one can figure it out. Multiple treatment failures. Now it's really exacerbating my Depersonalization and ocd... and my thought process is becoming illogical again. I feel like people are looking at me,I get angry, etc. I'm moody ups and downs depressed etc. My Dr wants me to try abilify to get thru. That's in addition to the cocktail of meds I take for chronic Depersonalization. So take a look at the pics. If it were you would you be concerned? It's the first and last thing I think about every day.... It's driving me crazy...
Anyone often experience constant, ruminating negative thoughts (They are not severe at all, and NOT having to do with self harm or suicide) but just constant negative thoughts about your situation/job/spouse/life that are difficult to distract yourself from? These are not "racing thoughts", manic nor impulsive thoughts either - They are very repetitive thought patterns that get in the way of experiencing (or enjoying) the moment or noticing what is around you? I think this is a common part of Depression, however, I've had certain doctors say this is a "Bipolar" cycling thing. What do you think? Is there a medication you feel helps with this?
Wikipedia quote: Wow. I mean, just wow. I'm not alone in this. We're not alone in this. I just had to share when I read that.