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I don't know how this forum works, but as I've come from another forum I'll give this a shot. My diagnosis is major depressive disorder, bipolar 2, episodes of psychosis, severe anxiety and panic disorder and agoraphobia. The way I manage these things when I'm overwhelmed is I go get several piercings at one sitting. I'm labeled as a self harm patient bcz of that. Psych says it's a type of self injury. But , no matter how hard I try I can't stop. I pierce, some I keep, others I take out after that high I feel from being pierced wears off so I can redo it again when I'm struggling. Just recently I got this piercing in the picture with the Trident of Zeus the Greek God that's attached. I'd already gotten a regular industrial cartilage piercing three days before but i believe other than my extremely elevated levels of anxiety, I'm going through mania. The best way I can explain it is that the pain hurts so good and it distracts my mental and emotional pain with temporary physical pain. But the relief doesn't last long it's only a temporary fix. And I can't even get pierced when I'm "normal" or having a good week. It's only when I'm stressed, anxious, angry, depressed, or manic that I get the urge, strong urges, to get pierced. But, I can't stop. Not now. So far I haven't been able to do that small thing. I toughed it out hard once and ended up shaving my hair off which was down my back and it was spur of the moment manic behavior. I make snap, irrational, irresponsible, and sometimes unpredictable decisions when I'm manic. They have me on Abilify and Klonopin meds and right now it's like I'm taking a placebo or sugar pills like skittles. Not working but I'm still at least taking them. Getting a new piercing tomorrow bc my weekend kicked my ass mentally.(excuse my language) wanting a really painful one so I may do the bridge of my nose. Thanks for listening to me ramble if anyone decided to read. Princess Warrior