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Hello all, I have a brain question and am not sure just where to post it; please bear with me if I'm in the wrong group. I have a history of migraine, GAD, and had a true bout of depression several years ago. I'm on a low dose of Lamictal -75 mg per day as a mood stabilizer and for migraine prevention. My P-doc thinks my depression may have had some bipolar II features so we have stopped using ssri meds. Lamictal has been a good med for me overall; I have descent moods most of the time and the migraines are pretty much the same variety they've always been. My migraines are rarely very painful, but they do give me the sense of being very sluggish in my brain and a sort of "dish rag" like feeling when I get one. There is a pattern to them that I've learned to understand. Something recently happened that has concerned me, however. I had developed the early stages of migraine a couple mornings ago, nothing terrible. Later that evening, after attending a wedding, I was doing some mundane chores and was lost in thoughts about the wedding event. I was using a small scrub brush, but decided I needed a sponge. I looked in my bucket, happily found a familiar yellow and green sponge, and continued scrubbing. I was briefly interrupted for a few seconds, and when I went back to reach in the sink for my sponge there wasn't one. There was only the scrub brush. I searched everywhere and it slowly dawned on me that I had imagined reaching for the sponge...and using it. I immediately started getting a vague, mild migraine headache. I've never had a typical visual aura, I've never had psychosis, and I've not "heard things" that weren't real. This wasn't the sort of migraine aura people describe anyway. It was as if something very typical and mundane was invented inside my brain. I'm sorry to say, but I'm still keeping an eye out for the sponge. That's how real it felt. I also had a different sort of experience happen several weeks ago where I was looking for a particular mirror that I keep on a windowsill. It wasn't in its usual place and after stomping all over the house trying to find it, I looked again and it had been there on the windowsill the whole time. I kept trying to figure out how I didn't notice it when it was the exact thing I was trying to find, all by itself on the sill. I had looked but not seen. I don't know if these events are related to migraine, or if I may be developing a seizure disorder, or something even more sinister. My husband knew I was worried so he gave me a quick early Alzheimer's screening test he'd had at the clinic. I passed easily with 100% accuracy, for what that's worth. 'My questions are-- is it plausible to have this sort of thing happen in a normal brain on occasion? Do any of these experiences sound like some sort of seizure? Is it possible that my thinking I was seeing and using the sponge was part of a migraine? Could a person invent that sort of thing if they were really deep in other thoughts? Im seeing my P-doc about this in a few days. I'd really appreciate input however...I'm sort of worried. Thankyou, I'll let you know if I find my sponge.