Mellifluouschangedemail Posted December 4, 2021 Share Posted December 4, 2021 Greetings to all! I’m mellifluous—-maybe a moderator could merge me or post a link…please? too long, though note I’ve highlighted fir your (hoped for) ease, can’t read or don’t know who you are: today it was discussed that though my primary problem is psychosis, though I’ve always had post psychosis spells after having breaks last >a year or two, today my psychiatrist told me he thinks when I’m mid-unwell, I have recurrent manic episodes. I’ve never been diagnosed with a freestanding mood disorder or schizoaffective so I’m floored. If you know me or have read my posts: do you think I’ve been manic at times? FOR THOSE WHO KNOW/REMEMBER ME: see triple asterisk below, but know first abd foremost that I love you all, I’ve missed you, I’ve had to overhaul my life to parent and be an engaged community member. I hope nobody thought I’d completed. I’m actually almost a year since my last hospitalization!!! FOR ALL IN BULLETS who I am: I am on off here when I can be over about eight to ten years i formed super strong relationships, both positive and constructive and just negative or unproductive fir us both my diagnosis has been SZ, ADHD, OCD (the intrusive images of horrible violent or sexual acts), and panic disorder. Also mild dyslexia ive been on a million combinations (my current invega injection, risperdal, concerta, klonopin, Luvox is keeping me in line) ive been hospitalized >50 and <100 times, roughly ive done 17 rounds of ECT was supposed to be eighteen but one got canceled for low blood pressure ive been super helpful (I’m told) at times, but also super unwell at times and super combative abd defensive but also super supportive and there’s been much mutual care and some mutual disdain **QUERY: did I ever, or do I if you read my posts now, strike you as manic? Not just psychotic, but also manic? cheers in advance to anyone responding!!!!! ***TRIPLE ASTERISK: you Gus from here, a lot on chat, in other sections…you were my tethers more often than I can adequately express. I love and miss so many of you. I can’t be here now. I just can’t. I spend fifteen to twenty hours a week on MI stuff, a minimum half hour per day on “alternative therapy of the day”, for example. Plus appointments and sessions and homework. I spend a minimum five hours a day engaging in family stuff that includes a couple of just me and progeny. I read a lot, but it’s all non mental illness stuff. I joined the fucking PTA to be a part of my community. And I spend a few hours a week volunteering. I have no time and my team wants me to not focus on mental illness because even though it makes me feel connected, I get absorbed. I may only read comments as I can without signing in again, but I see each of you. You are valid. Your struggles are real. You are real and loved and belong here and as a whole person here and outside of here. If it helps, be here. I may again be one day. I may not. But I’m always rooting for you xxxxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrazyRedhead Posted December 4, 2021 Share Posted December 4, 2021 3 hours ago, Mellifluouschangedemail said: Greetings to all! FOR THOSE WHO KNOW/REMEMBER ME: see triple asterisk below, but know first abd foremost that I love you all, I’ve missed you, I’ve had to overhaul my life to parent and be an engaged community member. I hope nobody thought I’d completed. I’m actually almost a year since my last hospitalization Welcome back!!....Yes, I remember you.....You've been through a lot, and congrats on being a good parent and community member.........Also, a year with no hospitalization sounds like you've made some progress........I look forward to seeing you around here on CB..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DogMan Posted December 4, 2021 Share Posted December 4, 2021 I remember you. I was formerly Humes doona Your question is probably better suited to face to face interactions than writing I'm happy for you focusing on life other than MI Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted December 4, 2021 Share Posted December 4, 2021 Hey Mel. Long time. I don’t remember you seeming manic, but I don’t really think I have mania, but the dr said I was. I guess he saw something I could not notice. I don’t take a separate mood stabilizer. My aap acts like that for me as well as controlling psychosis. I hope you stay around. Sorry I don’t have an answer. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dancesintherain Posted December 4, 2021 Share Posted December 4, 2021 hey melli. good to see you. I'm afraid I don't have a good answer to your question of mania either. it's not the first thought that comes to mind, but I wouldn't say that that should rule it out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jarn Posted December 5, 2021 Share Posted December 5, 2021 Melli! Good to see you! Every now and then I wonder how you are but have thought you were busy with the little one. I've been so off/on here too, I don't remember you seeming manic but I very easily could've missed it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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