gizmo Posted May 6, 2006 Share Posted May 6, 2006 I've been on Xanax for bipolar anxiety/panic attacks for about 18 months now. I started off with .5 as needed. Of course, I built up a tolerance to the drug and now I'm at 2mg as needed. I generally take about 5 once-daily doses a week for my needs. I'll tell you now I grew up with an alcoholic and drug abusing father (sober 14 years!) and am generally hateful of all pills, but deathly afraid of becoming "addicted" to Xanax. In the beginning, I wouldn't take the medicine when I needed to because of this fear, and my doctor had to literally give me permission to take the drug. Here's my question: I take a whole host of other bipolar meds, which I've been taking the whole time. They don't work on my anxiety or general agitation (which is my first step towards a full blown obsessive anxiety meltdown) So when this begins to happen, I take my Xanax. Work generally stresses me out. I don't work in a stressful enviornment, I'm just a perfectionist who's hyper aware of every mistake I make and want to be the perfect worker so something right will go on in my life. ANYWAY, the xanax at work allows me to be totally focused, alert, able to concentrate, able to joke with others. I'm my "normal" self. On the days I don't take it because I have this insane fear of taking it every day, I can't concentrate to save my life, I can't focus on anything, I'm not productive at all. Two days ago I spent two hours on the computer at work looking up electronic drums I can't afford for my husband! The only bad side is about 8 hours later, I'm tired from the med. Does Xanax have a normalizing effect like this on anyone? My pdoc said it was ok, but acted a little surprised by the number of PRN pills I've had to take in the last 30 days. The regular bipolar meds aren't making me manic; I'm on enough mood stabilizers to choke a horse. I don't feel "good" when I take it at work, just a better worker. Am I the weirdest of the mentally interesting? Gizmo (who tends to type fast, hence, a LOT) meds: 200 mg topomax, 20 mg celexa, 1 mg risperdal, 40 mg geodon, 2 mg xanax PRN (HA!) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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