grousemouse Posted June 6, 2006 Share Posted June 6, 2006 okay, there. i'm making a stupid post about be being bipolar maybe. i got fired by my tdoc/pdoc cos i missed sessions. it was going nowhere though cos i need deep one on one therapy not seeing a tdoc once every two weeks and my pdoc once every two months. me angry? i dunno. pissed off i guess cos i wanna be bipolar cos i'm just like that. i always wanna be more or better or worse than i am. i'm always not good enough. i have always thought i have depression, well, since i finally gave in and started getting 'help'. i would tell therapists that i had depression and we would go with that assumption. i NEVER got an official diagnosis from anyone. not even my most recent tdoc/pdoc clinic. "we don't believe in making diagnoses. we prefer to treat symptoms as we see them." "well, what's been the point of psychiatric and psychologic research? isn't it in part to discover links between symptoms and discover illnesses? doesn't a diagnosis establish a treatment plan and suggest other symptoms to look for?" fucking morons. so, two years down the tubes. plus we can throw ptsd on the pile now thanks to personal shit i endured during that time. the only drugs i've found to be useful are seroquel and alcohol. seroquel kept obsessive thoughts at a more manageable level and alcohol would break up the daily hell with a bit of heaven. otherwise it was just purgatory. i'm getting off effexor finally. currently down to 150 mgs from 225. my gp is going to start me on lithium. and i have a new pdoc that i see on june 22. so, yeah. hi. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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