easyrider1984 Posted June 8, 2006 Share Posted June 8, 2006 Hello!! I couldn't wait to get back home this morning so I could post this. I felt I needed to get it off my chest. I am sorry about last night. I made the mistake again of making judgements when I was so tired. I hadn't slept for 18+ hours and I only had 5 hours sleep the night before. On top of that I had a stressful morning and I cut in the afternoon, so it probably wasn't the best day. I only had 5 hours sleep last night too I still feel horrible, a little less suicidal, but I am better, at least, if only a little. I just wish I could take it back. I have done on here what I do everywhere. I've made myself look stupid and blown it. I'm so embarassed. This place helps me so much to get through each day I'll be viewed in a worse light from now on, and I can't deal with that. It won't be the same and I feel shit for it. I am sorry. I... just... don't know what to say to make it right again. I feel like I can't be here anymore. I just feel so unwanted and unloved. If people don't respond, or aren't even there to respond, I think that it's because they don't want to and that they don't like me and don't care like everyone else. I can't help it. It's just the way my brain works. My car is having a service today. I caught the bus back and I can't help but think people are looking at me and that I'm ugly and laughable to everyone. Plus a whole load of other stuff. I'm just so used to been disliked that I head straight for, and most of the time I am right But.... well, I don't think I can say anymore. It doesn't feel like anything more I say will do any good. Take care!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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