Being on the Internet is depressing

[Sensation]

Being on the internet message boards is draining and robotic at times. It feels so lifeless but the only connection I have to other people at this time. When I shut all of this down there is only the TV and the slow drag of the day going by.I have ran out of life to live it seems, nothing to do.

[Ella]

Yep. Avoidant agoraphobic here, so I can relate. I hate shutting off the computer because it's so quiiiiiet. Boredom is a constant threat. I used to get horrible manic episodes when I literally could not sit still and had to be doing something, but didn't have anything to do; the boredom would provoke panic attacks. At least it's more manageable for me now. Still dreaded, though. I get so envious of people whose days are non-stop action, filled with different people and places, interaction and variety. I've run into a lot of people who think being confined to your home is an easy, stress-free kind of life, and it always pisses me off to no end.

I have ran out of life to live it seems...

That's a good way of putting it.

[Sensation]

*yawn* yeah Ella the night is winding down, i'm getting panicked

night

[easyrider1984]

((((((((((Sensation))))))))))

To me, CrazyBoards is like a self-sustaining community. I find it so helpful, especially as a place to vent.

I don't see anything wrong with having the internet as the only connection you have to other people. If it helps you, then that can only be a good thing.

Please don't give up. You have plenty of life to live.

Take care!!

[username]

Being on the internet message boards is draining and robotic at times. It feels so lifeless but the only connection I have to other people at this time. When I shut all of this down there is only the TV and the slow drag of the day going by.I have ran out of life to live it seems, nothing to do.

I feel your pain.

But we will both get through this together.