mel1 Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 I just had a visit w/ my pdoc and I have had a return of my depression. I was having suicidal thoughts so he put me on wellbutrin-reluctantly. He was afraid it would aggravate depressions evil twin. He has been hearing alot that people who are BP should not be put on an AD and he recommended lithium. Itold him that scared me. Lithium sounds like craaazzzzyyy to me. Plus it makes you gain weight, and I've already gained 15-20 lbs. on seroquel. The last thing i need or want is to gain more weight. That would really be depressing. I know this sounds like a med post, but I wanted to get BP2 input if anyone has taken it and w/ what combo of meds. and did it make you gain weight. I have been experencing more agitation and irritability along with the despondency, withdrawal, and "I just want a pillow and a blanket and leave me alone". I had (about 2 months ago) constant thoughts about cutting myself, which I have never had before. Finally, one day, I cut my wrist w/ the same razor I use to shave-just left ugly red scratches. I had no intentions on killing myself-I just wanted to feel something else. I have never told anyone this because I was ashamed and angry w/ myself for doing it. I guess it's time to make that appt. w/ my tdoc I havent' seen in months because I was "too busy". When really I just dont' want to talk to her. Like I have been running away from my illness, which being a teacher, is not a convenient illness to have. My pdoc was really surprised I made it through the whole year without freaking out. Don't really know where I'm going w/ this. I guess I just had to get it out. mel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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