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Hello everyone.

I just joined. I'm Tanya.

I'm five months away from my 18th bithday!

I'm diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type 1, (I experience sever psychosis) Social Phobia, OCD, and Self Injury.

I father is an abusive man, who is also an alcoholic. From the time I was born to the age of 5 I seen him beat my mom. My parents are divorced. My mom also has bipolar disorder along with social phobia and ADHD. My dad and I were never close and now I am attempting to repair our relationship but at times he can be verbally abusive to me and he lies all the time. My dad does not believe in mental illness, and thinks I am a normal teenager.

When I was 13 I was raped by a guy friend of mine. He made my life hell at school, so I left to be home schooled. I tried to kill my self that year and I was hospitalized. I've been hospitalized twice. I fried SI(ed) when I was 5 and my dad was beating on my mom, I didn't SI again until I was raped. Now I cut, burn and wrist scratch.

My anxiety is horrible. I can't drive a car, I hardly leave my house. I'm working on trying to walk around the block. There is a lot more to my story and I will open up more around here as time goes on.

I do go to therapy and see a doctor.

I am also on medicine.

Topamax 200mg

Luvox 50mg

Abilify 5mg

klonopin 0.5mg

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Hi Tanya, welcome! It sounds like you've been through hell. I am truly in awe of your strength for coming through all that and being brave enough to tell us your story.

I can personally sympathize with the anxiety part of the equation. Particularly the driving because I'm the same way! Believe me, you're not alone. I look forward to seeing you around the boards. : ) If you need anything or have any questions, just let us know!

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Hi Tanya

Nice to meet you and Welcome to Crazy Boards. You have had a rough time during childhood and now the teen years, but you have SURVIVED!! You are here with us and thats great. Life gets better when you are an adult because you have more control over your life. Things can only get better when you are in control. You get to make the changes in your life that you want and can make life go in the direction that you want. No one can hold you back anymore. Everyone is nice here and I hope you stay around and get to know us better.

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