Angeljasmine Posted October 6, 2006 Share Posted October 6, 2006 I've had enough of being a victim of my own circumstances and my predictable reaction to any rejection of any sort (some of you may have followed a couple of my recent posts, especially about the job offer that I suddenly got declined, or any of my older posts). Whenever something bad happens in my life, which for me seems to be quite often, I sink immediately back into a deep depression, and in between that I'm functioning on a low-medium grade of depression anyway. (all stemming back to my upbringing and how it's affecting most aspects of the rest of my life). Anyway, I was affected badly by being declined what was to be a fantastic new job. I actually went overseas for a few days (to Sydney, Australia), to try to get my head around this. One thing's for sure, you take your thoughts and feelings with you when you go on a holiday. I kind of knew this but still, I just needed some time away to think. On my last day I was sitting in a church and started crying, I felt so awful. I just had to walk out of there as I didn't want to be seen or feel like this in public. I concluded during my time away that there's only one thing I can do for myself and that is to go back on medication for my depression. I cannot control the events of my life, only my reactions to what happens in it. Then again I sometimes say to myself even a sane person would feel f'n depressed if this all happened to them, the things that happen and have happened in my life. So I am posting this to ask what else is out there as a suitable antidepressant. I've tried SSRI's and I refuse to take them again, so they are out. I've tried Wellbutrin, but it made me very hyper and get a lot of anxiety, so that one is out too. I refuse to take anything which is known to make you put on weight or make you want to eat more. I'm not overweight but I do have an issue with it and have to be careful. My weight tends to fluctuate up and down over time by about 10 kilo's, currently at the upper end and want to lose it again now. So what else is out there that I can ask for? Since I won't be starting a new job after all, now is actually a really good time for me to go back on meds, don't have to worry about possibly acting "strange" , or being late for work, as I get used to the new meds. Oh and as I said I also suffer from anxiety. The general feeling I have been having is that I just lie in bed all day and don't see the point of even leaving my room, despite having the whole house to myself I just stay in my room in bed on the internet all day. I need something that will get me moving, that will get me out wanting to do things and most of all that will lift my mood! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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