Guest Guest_Alissha_* Posted January 17, 2007 Share Posted January 17, 2007 I'm rapidly burning out at my job. I'm sick to death of people that cannot treat their animals in a humane way. I'm sick of not getting accepted to vet school. I'm exhausted from trying to fix the animals that can't be fixed but miraculously belong to wonderful people. Moreover, I'm emotionally crippled from dealing with the idiots who can't be bothered to care about the blessed creatures that share their life. I don't know if I can handle cleaning up the messes that other have created or much longer, but I have to find some distance. I'm overworked and underpaid. I'm terrified that I'm going to fuck up when I'm doing something important at work like monitoring anesthetic. I'm frustrated that I have to put in a few hours of overtime every shift to keep things running. I'm angry that my clinic decided that when someone left their position the remaining staff could simply pick up the slack. I'm bitter that many staff members sit on their asses while I run around like a crazy person (which I am, but they don't know ). I can't stop working with animals; it is my passion, my love, and my calling. However, sometimes I just want to physically hurt clients and staff members alike. I've recently started complaining and swearing in the presence of coworkers, this is not like me. I need time off, but can't take any because we are sadly understaffed. I can't even look forward to my weekend (tomorrow and the next day) because I know I will have to return to work. I'm also exhausted from worrying about my own pets. My Mia cat has bladder infection number 3, or a continuation of number 2? She's FeLV positive and only 1.5 years old, she's been in my house since she was 3.5-4 weeks old. My rats are heading toward the truly geriatric age of 2, and the Jessie bunny is considered geriatric at age 5. Technically, so is my terrier Martin at age 7 but I'm convinced he'll last forever. Alfalfa the guinea pig (age 5 or so, typical age is 5-6 years) has a heart condition which seems to be well managed (knock on wood for me). Part of me thinks I have to learn how to have some distance, that I have to not care as much as I do. I don't know if I can still respect myself if I don't care the way I do now, if I don't cuddle the pets being euthanized who is going to? I need to tell them that it's going to be alright, things seem strange right now but will be better in just a little bit because they are going to a fantastic place where everything will be perfect. I think I just need to rant to someone who is distant from what I do for a living. I see why people burn out so easily in the vet med profession, it is an almost thankless job. Today, I got thanked once by an owner. In between I helped euthanize 3 animals, treat a few more, x-ray 3 more, put away a massive food order and got urine and feces all over me. I have my fucking B.Sc. I wish I had any desire to do anything more than work with animals. The only way to continue is to think of the animals, they are separate from the people and generally deserve more respect. No response is really necessary, but if you happen to go the your vet be sure to thank everyone is sight. They all participated in your animal's care and would really appreciate a kind word, one of the few they will hear that day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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