eating myself out of closet

[stable not balanced]

i just got done trying on my summer clothes and at least 3/4s of them do not fit.

the ones that do fit do not match any other ones.

i had to break down and buy a couple of shirts in the women's department.

i have become such a pig.

[Mechante]

I know what you mean... last year's clothes don't fit me either.

[Capulet]

OMG! We should start a club. This year, I've single-handedly eaten my way out of all of my clothes, even though I work out. I'm miserable in my body, and so disappointed in myself. That added to the fact that we don't really have the money for me to buy new clothes.

Ugh. I feel you guys.

[Thomas]

Up until recently, I had been losing weight, no matter what meds they put me one. In the past few weeks, though, I have had an incredible craving for sweets which I've satisfied by eating a whole box of donuts almost every day. My pdoc says it isn't the medicine giving me the cravings, but something that I have to control myself. I've gained 15 pounds in just two weeks (AAAArrggh!). Fortunately I have a closet full of both "fat clothes" and "skinny clothes. In the last several years, more like ten years), my weight has fluctuated between 420# and 220#. I actually still have some size 60 pants and some 4X shirts tucked away in the back of my closet. I'm still fitting in my 38" pants, but they are really snug and me tummy is starting to hang over.

Tommy

PS No donuts today

[synthetic]

Same situation here. Buying fat pants really sucks.

[stable not balanced]

i've managed to gorge on md's mcchicken sandwiches and small fries as well as any type of milkshake or cookie i could find.

[Mechante]

I ate two grilled cheese sammiches this morning.

[cockers.everywhere]

...as I sit here eating Dove chocolate chip cookies.

[Capulet]

After eating over half a bag of Tostito's and a turkey wrap (tortilla and slice of turkey), plus a bowl of cereal and 2 glasses of wine (hey, not together!), I wasn't even hungry for dinner, but I STILL ATE a Lean Cuisine Panini, two granola bars, two more turkey wraps, and three Rum and OJ's.

I consider this only a "lite binge" because I only ate one bowl of cereal. In full binge mode, I can eat 3-4. It's not pretty.

Yet some weeks, I can be fine. I don't understand how this happens, but I wish to God I could flip the switch!

Chocolate chip cookies. . . . yumm.

[chinacat]

Well I ate myself into the ozone last year, after my back surgery--gained back, and more, all the weight I a=had initially lost when I got put on mood stabalizers and got dx'd with Crohn's. Lost most of it now--last few weeks, appetite sux. But I cannot get rid of what I gain in all the wrong places, places I NEVER was "fat" before. Thats disgusting.

Iam used to having a fat ass--runs inmy family--but now to have this fat in the front above and below my waist? No more cut off tee shirts? SHIT. I hate that. I used to be--guess I still am--a real emotional eater, been known to go thru a can of chocolate frosting in a flash. But have discovered those little Dove dark chocolates, the ones where you take a tiny nibble and thenlet it melt? Jesus, those will kill a choc, craving in 10 minutes. Wonderous little buggers, they are.

china, who has just killed off a junior whopper and fries--first time in months I have had anything I did not have to cook or make (Hubby got a decent check this week)

[Guest Guest_pawnshopbassist_*]

Just reading this thread has made me hungry! None of my clothes from last year or even 3 months ago fit me now. I blame my meds. Evilness abounds in the form of tight jeans!

[sepia]

Last year was a fat year for me, and I do believe that meds played a part in that. I'm on even more medication this year, however, and my weight is back down to its "normal" 20-lb range of fluctuation. Synthroid and alertec have both helped, as has a great deal of walking every day I am capable of moving. You might feel fat right now, but that's no guarantee you'll feel that way forever. Weight can go both ways. You are not doomed to a life of medicated fatness. Things can turn around.

[Sophia85]

I have had to break down and start shopping in the plus size department. It really sucks. What sucks more is that my parents keep telling me I'm fat. As if I don't already know that.....

[unipolarbear]

i have become such a pig.

I know what you all mean. I have gained a little weight on the ZYprexa. BUt my healthy eating has gone down the tubes, too. I love hostess and ghirardelli dark chocolate squares and ben & Jerry's, too.

About the fat clothes, I actually broke down and gave all my skinny boi clothes away. That felt so good! No use in storing and crying over clothes that will never fit me again. So I went and bought clothes that fit me. Huge, baggy clothes. You don't look as fat when you wear clothes that actually fit you. (and I shop at Ross, not the expensive department stores). ANd I also found Casual Male XL. They have pretty good prices. THeir dressing rooms are so huge! They make you feel really fat. I guess people of size need all that space, though. When I left, I felt like I was exiting a porno store! I had to put my head down and quickly move down the street to make it look like I didn't just come out of the fat store. LOL whatta mess I am! 8-D

[Rabbit37]

I was so upset yesterday... the weather's turned warmer so I pulled out my shorts... and could barely get them zipped. Way too tight to wear. I've been reduced to wearing elsatic waist pants for now, and it makes me so angry. I blame the seroquel for all the carb/sugar cravings, then plus I've quit drinking, and AA encourages substituting sweets for alcohol cravings. So THAT doesn't help. I can go through a bag of Tootsie pops in 2 days. I'm eating in the efforts to reduce the smoking, which started when I quit drinking. God, where does it end????

When I lost all the weight a couple of years ago, and was down to 105, I gave away all my "fat" clothes. But I really hate to give up and buy a whole new wardrobe just to accomodate the extra weight gain, which I HOPE will eventually be lost. So, in the meantime, I'm dressing in the same damn 4 sets of clothes that fit me. Luckily, they're all black, so no one can really tell.

I want so badly to climb back on the Atkins wagon, but I think the meds are messing with my taste buds, and the same foods I used to love I now can't stand.

[stable not balanced]

to have any kind of variety, or wardrobe for that matter, i have to wear pants that are toooo small for me.

today, my butt crack was clearly defined and i had a lovely imprint of a button on my belly.

[LikeMinded]

...am I the only one here who loses appetite during periods of depression? (yeah I know, )

In any event, I don't need depression to drive me to overeat, I've got some sort of night eating syndrome, namely since my circadian-screwy body thinks that it's lunchtime at 10PM and dinnertime at 3AM. (n.B. - it also thinks that bedtime is around 5AM.)

The nightly Remeron just makes it worse. The lovely med that itself doesn't make you gain weight, but it does give you the cravings that will cause you to do so. I'd dump the drug, but it's the one of the few ADs in its class and really potentiates my Cymbalta (and is also a GI prokinetic, which helps my acid reflux).

This is why I don't keep sweets (or non-whole grain carbs, for that matter) around me... save for pasta, which I've so far been too lazy to boil at 3AM. So far, at least.

[Mechante]

this is just sort of related, but i don't know where else to put it, i feel comfy on the BP board... but i just got my cholesterol and triglycerides checked, both are high, i'm 35-40 pounds overweight, and I'm not quite twenty-three... pdoc is willing to start me on a low dose of Topamax to see if that will lessen the appetite any, but i'm a little wary of tossing another med into the mix, especially since Topamax would be med numero 7, not including birth control. is it worth it?