mamayaya Posted September 26, 2007 Share Posted September 26, 2007 So my daughters' father met a woman online and moved in with her and her two kids this past weekend, leaving me and my bipolar self with two young children, 3 and 1. I have been missing my pdoc and tdoc appts out of lack of motivation and now feel screwed. I was on Paxil, Zyprexa, and Xanax and while the Zyprexa made my depression better it also made me sleepier, so I weaned off of it. I called the pdoc and she said the earliest she can get me in is the first week in Oct and if I have an 'acute psychiatric emergency' to go to the ER. Sure. Anyway..... I have some Abilify from when I tried that before (before I was on Paxil) and it was 'activating' at 5 mg but I seemed to do okay on it at 2.5. I'm all out of Xanax with no refills. I am a total and complete hysterical mess. I am in the lowest depression of my life. I feel physically sick. I have been throwing up, my whole insides feel upset... I can't eat. I can't shower. I'm taking care of my babies with the help of a friend. Somethings gotta give. I'm willing to go ahead and start popping one or the other until I can get in just to see if I can get some kind of freakin relief!!!! I'm tired of sleeping and being sedated tho... It's a double-edged sword. Any suggestions on what to do? I can't get hospitalized... I have to work and support and watch my babies.. and I'm not suicidal... if I didn't have kids, then yep, I'd pretty much be then for sure. LOL Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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