Dragoneatscheese Posted February 10, 2008 Share Posted February 10, 2008 Saw this on another site I play on and while its deeply shocking reading its also oh so very very true!...I think everyone should read this if they are considering SI or trying to stop... stay safe though peeps... am gonna sticky it cus I think its important enough to not fall off the bottom of the board...if this causes problems please unsticky it !!! * * * * * * * * * * * * * WARNING .... Before you make that first cut remember. You will enjoy this. You will find the blood and pain release addictive. Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily ...they will get deeper. They will scar. They will take sometimes months to heal!!! And years for the scars to fade! IF you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again...it will spread when you run out of skin. Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame. Even if you are the most honest person ever to live.... You will find yourself lying to the people you love. You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison. You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched. Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be. Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.... Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting... Cutting and covering up cutting and just wait till that first time you cut "too deep." And you freak out because the blood won't stop...and you are gaping.... And you feel yourself shaking all over. You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can't tell anyone. So you sit there alone...praying it will be ok swearing you'll never let it go this far again...But you will and further. Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER. And the better you get at treating your cuts the deeper they get. You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find yourself spending 20, 30 or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy. You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order. Butterfly strips...three or four different kinds of dressings...betadine.... Antibiotic cream...medical tape...scar reducers...You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and no one will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things. And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice...someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies...someone who understands Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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