hxcles Posted February 16, 2008 Share Posted February 16, 2008 I've been diagnosed with aspergers syndrome, panic attacks, severe insomnia and depression. 7 years ago, I was prescribed serepax for sleep, which was my only problem at the time. Only 90mg woked. 4 years ago, I had some major life problems and was prescribed mogadon (15 or 45mg, 3 tablets of whatever the highest strength is...). I stopped having attacks frequently and only rarely. My doctor also trialed me on "alternating" valium and rohypnol due to some other things that cropped up. Rohypnol mostly made me feel sick, so I didn't take it much, and occasionaly took valium when needed. Last year, my carer/father assaulted me and left me to my own devices (which has been extremely hard) - so I simply took valium constantly, which has helped. 3 doctors have approved this, however my clinic underwent an "audit" and they can't prescribe schedule 4 drugs anymore. I went to see another G.P, who said all would be fine, but when I went to see him the next week, he said something along the lines of "you're on avanza! and noten! and 3 benzos! You'll have to stop taking mogadon, 3 is too much, this script has to last you 2 weeks" (which means he expects me to cut my dose in half immediately. Now, I get scared of doctors when I realise that they have a sort of power over my life, so I didn't say "theres a reason I was prescribed that in the first place, if I don't take it, I'll just have panic attacks again". He ended up saying "serepax or mogadon" but I can't figure out why I can't just give up the valium, I've been on it the shortest so it would be easiest to give up. Why is it so important for him to not allow me to cut out valium? He had an answer for everything, I said I don't have a tolerance because I've never had to take more than the same dose of a tablet for the same effect. But of course, doctors know everything, and I came out feeling like I was treated like a drug abuser. I'm just a disabled young man trying to put my life together and these tablets, along with antidepressant, have meant I would be nowhere near where I am now in doing this. How do you guys deal with these doctors that freak out whenever benzos (I hate using that word BTW, it sounds as if I'm a dealer)? I'm running low on supply, I've rung 30 clinics in my city, none of who are taking new patients, let alone prescribe "benzos". I'm at my wits end - I almost feel like I should just get the mogadon somewhere else, or use my 100-odd rohypnol pills to make it look like I'm tapering, but I want to be honest. What do I do? At this stage I am unable to look after myself and I can see myself ending up in the street or in a psyche ward. And there, they completely ignore the proper dosage of pills that I'm on. Plus I've always been let out after the 48 hour period as I don't have a mental illness. It's worse than being put in jail because you're not even charged with a crime! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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