darkdreams Posted July 14, 2005 Share Posted July 14, 2005 I am so confused that I don't really know where to look for help anymore. I have had nearly every label pasted on me and have tried many meds, almost all of them with unbearable side-affects. I can' even describe myself in terms of moods and thoughts ect.... I believe that I have suffered from chronic depression most of my life .....sure seems that way. I am also capable of flying into the most destructive rages....ie: smashing things and causing general mayhem. I have consulted various Docs over the years and every single one of them had a different opinion as to what was wrong and how to treat it. For the past 4 months or so I have been taking Adderall 5mg/2 per diem and Xanax 0.5 as needed...Seemed to help at first then ceased to have any other effect other than a negative one.I stopped everything cold 2 weeks or more ago and have been sliding down hill ever since. Wheeeeeeeeee.......yeah right.....fun.. Here is my perception of myself: 1)Constant chronic fatigue 2)Apathetic 3)Negative 4)No close friends 5)Loss of interest in my work and everything else 6)Bored 7)Easily irritated 8)Rages 9)Self-loathing 10)Hopeless 11)Very little concentration.. Does anyone have any ideas on what might work? I am interested in the med called Buprenex....Was wondering if it could possibly help? Thanks, DD Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sulu Posted July 14, 2005 Share Posted July 14, 2005 DarkDreams, I don't know anything about Burenex but from the symptoms you have listed it spells DEPRESSION to me and definitely needs treatment, usually with an antidepressant. I feel all 11 things you have mentioned and am trying to get out of it via Wellbutrin at the moment. Sometimes the first med won't work and you have to keep trying, but it's better than the alternative. Benzos like xanax often will end up making you more depressed. Do you have a pdoc or tdoc? If not maybe your family doc could refer you to one. I'm no doctor but it sounds treatable if you get the right help. Hang in there and let us know how you are doing. Sulu Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
darkdreams Posted July 15, 2005 Author Share Posted July 15, 2005 I am so confused that I don't really know where to look for help anymore. I have had nearly every label pasted on me and have tried many meds, almost all of them with unbearable side-affects. I can' even describe myself in terms of moods and thoughts ect.... I believe that I have suffered from chronic depression most of my life .....sure seems that way. I am also capable of flying into the most destructive rages....ie: smashing things and causing general mayhem. I have consulted various Docs over the years and every single one of them had a different opinion as to what was wrong and how to treat it. For the past 4 months or so I have been taking Adderall 5mg/2 per diem and Xanax 0.5 as needed...Seemed to help at first then ceased to have any other effect other than a negative one.I stopped everything cold 2 weeks or more ago and have been sliding down hill ever since. Wheeeeeeeeee.......yeah right.....fun.. Here is my perception of myself: 1)Constant chronic fatigue 2)Apathetic 3)Negative 4)No close friends 5)Loss of interest in my work and everything else 6)Bored 7)Easily irritated 8)Rages 9)Self-loathing 10)Hopeless 11)Very little concentration.. Does anyone have any ideas on what might work? I am interested in the med called Buprenex....Was wondering if it could possibly help? Thanks, DD <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Thanks Sulu for your reply. I think it sounds like depression as well. I don't have a private shrink, just the doctor who is available through managed care...ie: Kaiser Permanente....I think that I have seen him perhaps 2x in 3 years. The NP who works with him has been fairly helpful but on the whole nothing much has changed. I think that perhaps a Dr. with just a bit of creativity in the meds area would be really great. I don't really see it happening with Kaiser Permanente... DD PS: The med Buprenex is used sometimes for refractory depression....other than that I dont know much about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StrungOutOnLife Posted July 15, 2005 Share Posted July 15, 2005 Buprenex is used to get people off of heroin without methadone. The problem with methadone is that it shows up on piss tests and prisoners can sell their methadone-laden spit. Details here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ruins Posted July 16, 2005 Share Posted July 16, 2005 I don't have a private shrink, just the doctor who is available through managed care...ie: Kaiser Permanente....I think that I have seen him perhaps 2x in 3 years. The NP who works with him has been fairly helpful but on the whole nothing much has changed. I think that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sun_zoom_spark Posted July 16, 2005 Share Posted July 16, 2005 Here is my perception of myself: 1)Constant chronic fatigue 2)Apathetic 3)Negative 4)No close friends 5)Loss of interest in my work and everything else 6)Bored 7)Easily irritated 8)Rages 9)Self-loathing 10)Hopeless 11)Very little concentration.. Does anyone have any ideas on what might work? Your self evaluation fits me to a tee when I am not medicated. Sounds like a mixture of anxiety, depression and dysphoric mania. My pdoc has me on lithium for mania and depression, Seroquel for the same + anxiety and Klonopin for anxiety. Are your mood swings anxiety driven? I think that anxiety is the core issue in all mental disorders including psychosis. I may be wrong but this is what I have come to notice in the past three years. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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