I was going to say, Hi I'm new

[beetle]

but my old account still works. It was so long ago that I created this account that I couldn't remember even what my username was but I had it saved in FF and when I loaded the reg. page, presto.

So, here I am. I could have sworn I made at least a few posts with this old account but don't see evidence of such. Maybe I just lurked the whole time, I don't remember. In any case, thanks for not deleting my account.

I find myself back here because I am once again severly depressed. I mean, I really feel like shit. I think it's going to be as bad as the last time I hit bottom (back when I first created this account). I've gone back to get meds, as much as I didn't want to, I know at this point it's my only hope of holding it together.

I've started Wellbutrin, just a little over a week now. My emotions are all over the place. Plus, I think there's some anxiety creeping in, which I usually don't have this much of a problem with. I think it's the wellbutrin making me edgy. This isn't my first time on wellbutrin but I don't rememer it feeling like this last time. Then again, at that time I was on Effexor also.

Well, I found my way back here because I felt like chatting with some people who understood where I am right now. I don't have anyone in r/l to talk to so the isolation is making this whole thing worse.

So hello, I'm not so new here.

[olga]

Welcome back, Beetle! I'm glad you're with us again, even if the circumstances aren't so great for you right now.

Let us know if we can help you with anything, or point you in the direction of some information. We have also added a blog section if you would like to start one and tell your story. You can make it private or public.

Good luck!

olga

[beetle]

Welcome back, Beetle! I'm glad you're with us again, even if the circumstances aren't so great for you right now.

Let us know if we can help you with anything, or point you in the direction of some information. We have also added a blog section if you would like to start one and tell your story. You can make it private or public.

Good luck!

olga

Please forgive me if this is discussed someplace else at length but was this the same forum that used to be linked from the crazymeds website? I think that's how I originally found this place back then. Now recently, when I've gone back to the crazymeds site, the forum is different, more focused on the meds. This is the forum I seem to remember and I even remember the names of some of the long timers here.

[AirMarshall]

Hi Beetle, welcome back.

Yes originally both sites were one, then split into two about 2.5 years ago. Your old posts may not have carried over through some of the changes and software upgrades.

Sorry things are down now, but hang in there for the meds to take hold. Feel free to post. Pm any of the mods if need help. We have live chat (button at top) and you can create a blog if you wish.

cheers, a.m.

[Maddy]

but my old account still works. It was so long ago that I created this account that I couldn't remember even what my username was but I had it saved in FF and when I loaded the reg. page, presto.

Just another reason why I <3 FF!

I find myself back here because I am once again severely depressed. I mean, I really feel like shit. I think it's going to be as bad as the last time I hit bottom (back when I first created this account). I've gone back to get meds, as much as I didn't want to, I know at this point it's my only hope of holding it together.

Welcome back, just wish that things were better for you. Hopefully it won't be as bad as last time and that the meds will keep it from being as bad as before.

I've started Wellbutrin, just a little over a week now. My emotions are all over the place. Plus, I think there's some anxiety creeping in, which I usually don't have this much of a problem with. I think it's the wellbutrin making me edgy. This isn't my first time on wellbutrin but I don't rememer it feeling like this last time. Then again, at that time I was on Effexor also.

Are you on a different formulation of Wellbutrin than last time? There's the SR version and I think an XL version. I know that my nephew can only take the SR version. Some people have noticed a difference between the generic and brand versions as well. My nephew has no problem w/the generic, it's works the same for him as the brand. But not every body reacts the same.

Well, I found my way back here because I felt like chatting with some people who understood where I am right now. I don't have anyone in r/l to talk to so the isolation is making this whole thing worse.

So hello, I'm not so new here.

Hope you find the help and camaraderie here that you're looking for. There is also a "Help" button in the upper-right corner that has some helpful information. Including the "List of Mental Health Terms" that is a glossary of sorts for many of the acronyms used on here. Hope that helps.

[beetle]

Hi Beetle, welcome back.

Yes originally both sites were one, then split into two about 2.5 years ago. Your old posts may not have carried over through some of the changes and software upgrades.

Sorry things are down now, but hang in there for the meds to take hold. Feel free to post. Pm any of the mods if need help. We have live chat (button at top) and you can create a blog if you wish.

cheers, a.m.

Thanks for the explantion on that and thanks for the welcome.

Ugh, the meds have me feeling like crap but I'm pretty med compliant because I'm desperate to feel better.

I guess you could say that I'm chronically dysthimic and have been for as long as I can remember. When my last pdoc asked me if I could remember a time when I felt happy, I looked at him dumbfounded. It's not like I haven't had some good moments here and there but I feel like even those "happy" moments were overshadowed with a bit of depression. But I'm usually able to function in that state, if not a little difficult to live with at times. Then, things happen (and who knows exactly what those things are) and I hit the wall, which is where I'm at now.... external circumstances/stress, hormones and my chronically depressed brain all come together and create a big mess.