hayzefog Posted March 29, 2008 Share Posted March 29, 2008 I was searching for Dermatillomania, and found this board. I felt immediately excited to read a few posts, as people are undergoing similar situations as myself - and that makes me feel less crazy! I don't consider myself crazy. I do exhibit some behavior that I find disruptive to my life, and I choose to treat it with medication. I have been on SSRI's for 6 years, and can now live life with less meltdowns, and more progress! I'm a full time college student, biochemistry/molecular biology, and might go into psychiatry. I love people, especially people who need help, and I love to learn/read/research about what might be going on biologically. Before I began SSRI's I was an angry person. I would yell at cashiers and fast food workers for messing up my order, and was very critical of most people. I used to search for love, and when a relationship fell apart, so did I. Now I rarely date, and spend most of my time with my mother, my daughter, and the father of my daughter. Lately I have been slacking on the school work. I'm taking 5 classes, and this week I skipped every class. I'm too competitive to let my A go, so I'll fight to do well. This leads me to stress, and yucky feelings, and then a meltdown, and then release. My main reason for chemically induced rationalism is my daughter. She is the most joyous accompanyment that my life has, and I want her to develop healthy self esteem and be a kind, generous person. And I want her to learn math and science (hehe). I fear telling people about my disthymia/depression because I don't want to be stereotyped. I am a harmless, creative, science geek who loves music, sunshine, playing with my kid, and helping others. There is such a stigma for us who have mental issues. Like we are going to go postal or something. I am more afraid of the people who have problems, but refuse help. I think we are the more rational people because we choose to help ourselves and that requires strength. I love Freddie Mercury and Queen, Stevie Wonder, The Beatles, and most popular country music. I'm so glad to have found this board, and hope to help others and myself. Jenny Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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