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Got a sensitive subject.

I'm BP I and on a cocktail of Wellbutrin (300mg), Lamictal (25mg -- just started two days ago), and Trazodone (50mg -- also new to me).  Been on the WB for two months now and all I seem to dream about is sex, brought on, presumably, by the insane manic period I'm in right now.  Previous to the Lamictal, I had tried Trileptal which was worthless for me. 

The dreams have been increasingly vivid over the past week, and I'm terrified that, because I can't control my dreams, I'm going to start dreaming about totally reprehensible stuff (maybe not to some people, but definitely to me, anyway) that had never crossed my mind before now.  Haven't had any really horrible ones yet, but's all this has been fueling an already fierce case of OCD, and I'm going insane with guilt, self-disgust, and ultimately fear of how fucked up these dreams will get, so much so that I'm scared to fall asleep most nights. 

Anyone else? 

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Oh yeah, I've had some really fucked up sexual dreams that made me actually fear sleep.  The kind that would make your skin crawl!  You have to wonder, where on earth do these dreams come from?  Do I have this dark side hidden deep inside me?  Pretty damn scary, if you ask me.  I sometimes wonder if it's because I've let men use me, abuse me, rape me and hurt me over the past 15 years that it just isn't my mind playing sweet revenge.  You know what I mean?

Oh well, guess that's what it's like being manic.  There's just a dark side to us that some of us are terrified of seeing.

Elizabeth

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Yeah, I used to worry more about those dreams, but it seems like the more I focus on it, the more it's a problem. So...now on the fairly rare occasion I have a disturbing dream, I just wake up and say, "Eh...that was odd. Freakin' BP/meds!" and go on with my life. Just because you/I dream something, doesn't mean we would do it.

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Odd that I should see this topic, since I had one just last night.  I dreamt that I was sexually abused by a guy I hooked up with a few years back.  I won't go into details because it was so disturbing, but it was bad and I could "feel" his hands in bad places.  I woke up pretty damn scared.

On the opposite side of things, I have had some downright enjoyable sex dreams on these meds.  Happy, romantic, fun kind.  Ethereal has the right idea - even if they wig you out, keep reminding yourself that it is just a dream and doesn't mean you are bad. 

I'm terrified that, because I can't control my dreams, I'm going to start dreaming about totally reprehensible stuff (maybe not to some people, but definitely to me, anyway) that had never crossed my mind before now.  Haven't had any really horrible ones yet, but's all this has been fueling an already fierce case of OCD, and I'm going insane with guilt, self-disgust, and ultimately fear of how fucked up these dreams will get, so much so that I'm scared to fall asleep most nights. 

What kind of "Reprehensible" stuff, may I ask?  Maybe your head is trying to tell your conscious to expand? 

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Got a sensitive subject.

I'm BP I and on a cocktail of Wellbutrin (300mg), Lamictal (25mg -- just started two days ago), and Trazodone (50mg -- also new to me).  Been on the WB for two months now and all I seem to dream about is sex.

This could be something that needs to be talked out in therapy- an underlying issue, or it could be meds related. My bet is that it is med related, considering the timing, though it is obviously upsetting. [You can probably figure out if it is meds relatively easily and at least decrease your symptoms]

The wellbutrin is actually known for a tendency to improve libido. This passed when I took it- or it eventually calmed down or I got used to it. I am not sure which.

The dreams have been increasingly vivid over the past week, and I'm terrified that, because I can't control my dreams, I'm going to start dreaming about totally reprehensible stuff (maybe not to some people, but definitely to me, anyway) that had never crossed my mind before now... and I'm going insane with guilt, self-disgust, and ultimately fear of how fucked up these dreams will get, so much so that I'm scared to fall asleep most nights. 

Trazodone can give you very vivid dreams.  Often. 

You are dealing with a lot of med changes it sounds like- it will mess with your hormones, body in general, sleep, etc.  If you are dreaming, it could result in some strange ones. The trazodone + wellbutrin you started recently - two months; and you didn't mention the trazodone- it isn't surprising that you are having dreams sexual in nature.  Add stress  a good deal of stress [and your tendency to ruminate?] , they might have an anxious or negative undertone.

The lamictal- it is a long titration and hopefully it will help.  For now... Can you sleep on only 25 mgs of trazodone? I split the tablets when I took it.

More traditional sleep aids [lunesta maybe for long term use], or seroquel might be a possibility.  There is a board for sleep disorders.

Do talk to your doctor. If you are having dreams which cause anxiety and make you not want to go to sleep,  it renders the trazodone useless. 

I know that the dreams  are very troubling to you,but I don't think that they are that unusual, considering what you are experiencing and your meds.

http://www.crazymeds.us/desyrel.html

http://www.crazymeds.us/seroquel.html

http://www.lunesta.com/

http://www.crazyboards.org/index.php?showforum=42

~navy~

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I can agree with the disturbing/sexual/VIVID on Wellbutrin but I'm just MDD - it's easing up some now that I'm steady at 300 mg, so for me, I've just been doing what Ethereal says - blame it on the meds and ignore.

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Wow.  You guys too?  It seems with every cocktail change my dreams get stranger and in some cases...horrifying.

I'd like to think I'm a nice person that wouldn't harm a soul...not physically anyway.  But the stuff that enters my head when I'm asleep makes my skin crawl.  I've been reluctant to bring it up in therapy because I felt I'd be locked up for sure.  But I have and we've talked about it to some extent, although I don't find it helping to curb any of the dreams themselves.  Maybe I just know that it's the meds doing this and not my brain finally going completely kaput.  Compared to the current relatively kaput.

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Wow.  You guys too?  It seems with every cocktail change my dreams get stranger and in some cases...horrifying.

I'd like to think I'm a nice person that wouldn't harm a soul...not physically anyway.  But the stuff that enters my head when I'm asleep makes my skin crawl.  I've been reluctant to bring it up in therapy because I felt I'd be locked up for sure.  But I have and we've talked about it to some extent, although I don't find it helping to curb any of the dreams themselves.  Maybe I just know that it's the meds doing this and not my brain finally going completely kaput.  Compared to the current relatively kaput.

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you're better than I am.  I guess I don't have a good enough relationship with my doc to be able to... well... discuss issues such as these...

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